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Hello all,
Frist entry ever.. took me long enough :P
There are a few things I want to say, but that is for later. Right now I am just going to say that I am a confused bi-sexual that is having a hard time dealing with this way of life, mainly since I have not said to anyone that I am bi. I frist realized I was bi when I started noticing I was "getting hard" at boys and girls the same amount.. time wise I have only in the past year accepted it, but noticed it when I was in 5th or 6th grade ( 11 or 12 yo).
Now for the fun bit...
I am currently going out with this wonderful girl (no she does not know ( I do want to tell her), but there is a friend of mine (male) who I seemingly have a crush on. As some crushes go, I don't know why I have this crush on him. He does not know anything, some times I want to tell him. We have been friends for four years now, the crush growing ever since the first year, and he has made it clear that he does not like guys in the way I like him. I have been throwing out hints that I am bi and somewhat into him, but I am unsure if he is getting those hints.
If anyone can help me I will be ever so greatful. I just don't know how to handle it, with coming out to the people I know and love and to tell my friend that I have a crush on him.