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Sometimes I feel that I should just pack my bags, and run away. Then I think a couple of logicial question ,I think " What to do for money, where to stay and where to go ?"
I dont know why but this month, I just wanted to leave my home and go away very far. And I did that, all those question I though just became meaningless and I just left, told my parents I have nothing to do, and to my surprise they said they understand.
I cant say whether my travels were good or bad. I went to meet my boyfriend, who lives very far, I was so happy to see him but I cant say about him. More than half the time he was drinking beer and was drunk, whenever he introduced me to someone, I was presented as if I were a trophy wife and nothing more. He got angry at me when I would live the room and go out because he was always busy talking to someone on the phone and what choice did I have ? I was in a new place so I would leave the room and luckily I found friends in the staff of the hotel I was staying at,me and them had pleasant talks, my boyfriends use to make fun of this also.
One night he and I had bitter fight(both of us were drunk), he threw beer at me in a fit of rage, told me that the only reason he loved me was out of pity.
At that moment I was crushed, for he is my first love and for some strange reason I still love him.
After all this I went back home. I had to keep a strong face, so as my family would know nothing. And here am I now writing this, dont know why, I guess sometimes it's better to write than to cry.

Next time when I leave my home I would go to a place where atleast I know I can hug someone, I know that he would hold me tighly while we sleep and I hope that I would forget all about him and move on.
It is hard sometimes to move on, I know that from an experience in my life, not this on of course. But as time passes our wounds do heals and this one would also heal.
I just wanna say, dont run away from your problems in life, no matter what they might be, embrace them, and you can become strong. And when you have embrace the follies in your life, then fly away somewhere nice, if you want go with someone or better still go alone, just equip yourself with a pen, a notepad and a book ( good one not something crappy like Twilight or Harry Potter).

Just think on this , it's something said by Leo Tolstoy " All happy families are alike and all unhappy families are unhappy in their own way ". I'll twist the words and say "when we are happy, all the people around us, their happiness your happiness is smiliar, but when we are sad, we are sad because of so many things, and this saddness is different from someone elses saddness, but even in this saddness you try to become someone elses happiness, well that feeling is indescribable"( Give this a thought once in a blue moon)

One way to tackle your sadness is just by talking to someone, let it be your friends or family or if you want to unburden yourselves from your troubles, chat with this blogger, I have plenty of time, I have nothing to do except read books and sleep. Talking is sometimes the only and the best medicine to cure your saddness.

Hope my blog wasnt boring, if it were go suck a tree :P