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my story part two
hey everyone,
so before i start with this second entry i would like to thank all of my friend i have made on gbt. i would like to mention two members in particular. first sexychris94, thank you for encouraging me to make my profile on here. it was the best decision i've made in my life. second meandean65, my talks with you over the past week have been more help in this process than i can possibly mention. so thanks to both of you.
so now on to my story. at the end of my last blog i told you that i was writing a letter to a woman that has been a second mom to me. well i completed the letter not long after i posted my story. then i rewrote it, then i hid it in a book. finally i decided it was time to tell her. so i kept the note with me in my pocket waiting for the right time to give it to her.
well it truly seemed like the universe was conspiring against me. if it wasn't one thing that got in my way it was another. from unruly kids, to dogs acting crazy it just seemed like everyone was bound and determined to put her in a bad mood and scare me off. then today she realized that i was upset about something, and asked what was wrong. i wasn't quiet ready yet so i waited till we where driving to work. instantly i knew it was a bad idea for me to be the one driving, but i needed a reason to not look at her when i was talking.
after a few minutes of me dragging out the conversation, she asked if i was upset about something her or her kids did, or if it was about my family, or if i did something i was ashamed of. i told her that it was about me but not something i was ashamed of. she looked at me and said "kyle are you gay?"
i was so nervous that all i could do was nod my head and keep the car on the road. but as soon as i nodded yes to her, she instantly smiled wider that i have seen her smile before. she told me that she had known for years now but wanted to let me work it out on my own. she told me how proud she was for having the courage to finally admit to myself and to others who i am. she said everything that i needed to hear. and after we got home i told her kids what i told her, they where very supportive of me(their mother raised them right). now for the first time in m life i am living in a house where everyone knows that i am gay, and there is no longer any secrets for me to hide.
i know that i am just starting in this new world of being openly gay, and i know not everyone will except me. but i also know that with their support i can face any opposition head on.
so before i start with this second entry i would like to thank all of my friend i have made on gbt. i would like to mention two members in particular. first sexychris94, thank you for encouraging me to make my profile on here. it was the best decision i've made in my life. second meandean65, my talks with you over the past week have been more help in this process than i can possibly mention. so thanks to both of you.
so now on to my story. at the end of my last blog i told you that i was writing a letter to a woman that has been a second mom to me. well i completed the letter not long after i posted my story. then i rewrote it, then i hid it in a book. finally i decided it was time to tell her. so i kept the note with me in my pocket waiting for the right time to give it to her.
well it truly seemed like the universe was conspiring against me. if it wasn't one thing that got in my way it was another. from unruly kids, to dogs acting crazy it just seemed like everyone was bound and determined to put her in a bad mood and scare me off. then today she realized that i was upset about something, and asked what was wrong. i wasn't quiet ready yet so i waited till we where driving to work. instantly i knew it was a bad idea for me to be the one driving, but i needed a reason to not look at her when i was talking.
after a few minutes of me dragging out the conversation, she asked if i was upset about something her or her kids did, or if it was about my family, or if i did something i was ashamed of. i told her that it was about me but not something i was ashamed of. she looked at me and said "kyle are you gay?"
i was so nervous that all i could do was nod my head and keep the car on the road. but as soon as i nodded yes to her, she instantly smiled wider that i have seen her smile before. she told me that she had known for years now but wanted to let me work it out on my own. she told me how proud she was for having the courage to finally admit to myself and to others who i am. she said everything that i needed to hear. and after we got home i told her kids what i told her, they where very supportive of me(their mother raised them right). now for the first time in m life i am living in a house where everyone knows that i am gay, and there is no longer any secrets for me to hide.
i know that i am just starting in this new world of being openly gay, and i know not everyone will except me. but i also know that with their support i can face any opposition head on.
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