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Religious guy 'fakes' being gay for a year
Was just reading this in the newspaper -
http://www.nzherald.co.nz/world/news/article.cfm?c_id=2&objectid=10840517
"Timothy Kurek grew up hating homosexuality. As a conservative Christian deep in America's "Bible Belt", he was taught that being gay was an abomination before God.
He went to his right-wing church, saw himself as a soldier for Christ and attended Liberty University, the "evangelical West Point".
But when a Christian friend in a karaoke bar told him how her family had kicked her out when she revealed she was a lesbian, Kurek began to question his beliefs. Amazingly, the 26-year-old decided to "walk in the shoes" of a gay person in the United States by pretending to be homosexual.
For an entire year Kurek lived "undercover" as a gay man in his hometown of Nashville, Tennessee.
He told his family he was gay, as well as his friends and his church. Only two pals and an aunt - used to keep an eye on how his mother coped with the news - knew his secret.
One friend, a gay man called Shawn - whom Kurek describes as a "big, black, burly teddy bear" - pretended to be his boyfriend. Kurek got a job in a gay cafe, hung out in gay bars and joined a gay softball league, all the while maintaining his inner identity as a straight Christian.
The result was a remarkable book, The Cross in the Closet, which follows the tradition of such works as Black Like Me, by a white man in the 1960s Deep South passing as a black American, and 2006's Self-Made Man, by Norah Vincent, who details her time in disguise living as a man.
"In order to walk in their shoes, I had to have the experience of being gay. I had to come out to my friends and family and the world as a gay man," Kurek said.
His account of his year being gay is an emotional, honest and at times hilarious account of a journey that begins with him as a strait-laced yet questioning conservative, and ends with him reaffirming his faith while embracing the cause of gay equality.
Along the way he sheds many friends, especially from Liberty, who emailed him after he came out asking him to repent his sins and warning that he faced damnation. He does not regret their loss. "I now have lots of new gay friends," Kurek said.
But it was not a straightforward journey. Early on Kurek decided to acclimatise by visiting a gay nightclub.
Entering alone, he soon found himself dragged on to the dance floor by a shirtless muscular man covered in baby oil and glitter. As they danced to Beyonce, the man pretended to ride Kurek like a horse to the disco music and called him a "bucking bronco". It was all a bit too much, too soon. "I want to vomit. I need a cigarette. I feel like beating the hell out of him," Kurek writes.
But soon things started going better. To avoid unwanted passes, Kurek recruited Shawn to act as a faithful boyfriend and he rapidly became part of the Nashville gay scene. He explored gay culture and found it to be as diverse and interesting as any other slice of American life.
In one gay bar, Kurek was stunned to discover gay Christians earnestly discussing their belief in creationism. "I found gay Christians more devout than me!" Kurek says. He became active in a gay rights group and wound up joining a protest outside the Vatican's embassy to the United Nations in New York.
However, there was a cost. To gauge his mother's true reaction to the news that her son was gay, Kurek read her private journal. In it he found that she had written: "I'd rather have found out from a doctor that I had terminal cancer than I have a gay son."
But Kurek's journey also became hers. Eventually she was won over and changed her views. "My [mother] went from being a very conservative Christian to being an ally to the gay community. I am very proud of her," he said.
Kurek also experienced firsthand being called abusive names. Though he himself had once called gay protesters at Liberty "fags", he found himself on the other side of the fence. During a softball practice in Nashville, a man walking his dogs called Kurek and his teammates "faggots".
Kurek had to be restrained from confronting the man and then broke down in tears at the shock. "When I was first called that for real, I lost it. I saw red. I felt so violated by that word," he said.
Finally Kurek's journey ended when he revealed his secret life and "came out" again, but this time as a straight Christian. However, he says one of the most surprising elements of his journey was that it renewed his religious faith rather than undermined it. "Being gay for a year saved my faith."
Kurek feels his experience should not only show conservative Christians that gay people need equal rights and can be devout too, but can also reveal another side of evangelicals to the gay community.
"The vast majority of conservative Christians are not hateful bigots at all. It is just a vocal minority that gets noticed and attracts all the attention."
http://www.nzherald.co.nz/world/news/article.cfm?c_id=2&objectid=10840517
"Timothy Kurek grew up hating homosexuality. As a conservative Christian deep in America's "Bible Belt", he was taught that being gay was an abomination before God.
He went to his right-wing church, saw himself as a soldier for Christ and attended Liberty University, the "evangelical West Point".
But when a Christian friend in a karaoke bar told him how her family had kicked her out when she revealed she was a lesbian, Kurek began to question his beliefs. Amazingly, the 26-year-old decided to "walk in the shoes" of a gay person in the United States by pretending to be homosexual.
For an entire year Kurek lived "undercover" as a gay man in his hometown of Nashville, Tennessee.
He told his family he was gay, as well as his friends and his church. Only two pals and an aunt - used to keep an eye on how his mother coped with the news - knew his secret.
One friend, a gay man called Shawn - whom Kurek describes as a "big, black, burly teddy bear" - pretended to be his boyfriend. Kurek got a job in a gay cafe, hung out in gay bars and joined a gay softball league, all the while maintaining his inner identity as a straight Christian.
The result was a remarkable book, The Cross in the Closet, which follows the tradition of such works as Black Like Me, by a white man in the 1960s Deep South passing as a black American, and 2006's Self-Made Man, by Norah Vincent, who details her time in disguise living as a man.
"In order to walk in their shoes, I had to have the experience of being gay. I had to come out to my friends and family and the world as a gay man," Kurek said.
His account of his year being gay is an emotional, honest and at times hilarious account of a journey that begins with him as a strait-laced yet questioning conservative, and ends with him reaffirming his faith while embracing the cause of gay equality.
Along the way he sheds many friends, especially from Liberty, who emailed him after he came out asking him to repent his sins and warning that he faced damnation. He does not regret their loss. "I now have lots of new gay friends," Kurek said.
But it was not a straightforward journey. Early on Kurek decided to acclimatise by visiting a gay nightclub.
Entering alone, he soon found himself dragged on to the dance floor by a shirtless muscular man covered in baby oil and glitter. As they danced to Beyonce, the man pretended to ride Kurek like a horse to the disco music and called him a "bucking bronco". It was all a bit too much, too soon. "I want to vomit. I need a cigarette. I feel like beating the hell out of him," Kurek writes.
But soon things started going better. To avoid unwanted passes, Kurek recruited Shawn to act as a faithful boyfriend and he rapidly became part of the Nashville gay scene. He explored gay culture and found it to be as diverse and interesting as any other slice of American life.
In one gay bar, Kurek was stunned to discover gay Christians earnestly discussing their belief in creationism. "I found gay Christians more devout than me!" Kurek says. He became active in a gay rights group and wound up joining a protest outside the Vatican's embassy to the United Nations in New York.
However, there was a cost. To gauge his mother's true reaction to the news that her son was gay, Kurek read her private journal. In it he found that she had written: "I'd rather have found out from a doctor that I had terminal cancer than I have a gay son."
But Kurek's journey also became hers. Eventually she was won over and changed her views. "My [mother] went from being a very conservative Christian to being an ally to the gay community. I am very proud of her," he said.
Kurek also experienced firsthand being called abusive names. Though he himself had once called gay protesters at Liberty "fags", he found himself on the other side of the fence. During a softball practice in Nashville, a man walking his dogs called Kurek and his teammates "faggots".
Kurek had to be restrained from confronting the man and then broke down in tears at the shock. "When I was first called that for real, I lost it. I saw red. I felt so violated by that word," he said.
Finally Kurek's journey ended when he revealed his secret life and "came out" again, but this time as a straight Christian. However, he says one of the most surprising elements of his journey was that it renewed his religious faith rather than undermined it. "Being gay for a year saved my faith."
Kurek feels his experience should not only show conservative Christians that gay people need equal rights and can be devout too, but can also reveal another side of evangelicals to the gay community.
"The vast majority of conservative Christians are not hateful bigots at all. It is just a vocal minority that gets noticed and attracts all the attention."
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