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Just so everyone knows I went to my friend Randy"s funeral Sunday. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Fortunately the casket was closed I don't think I could have dealt with looking at his corpse. His parents were polite but didnt know quite how to deal with me. His sister however was more friendly. I guess she and Randy were closer and shared more details of his life on the streets.

I havent cried so much in a long time. Cecilia took me home and I made it through the night and luckily its this time of year so Home Depot has me working almost non stop. I dont have time to sit around alone and think about it. Infact I just got home and found many concerned emails from my friends on here. I love you all! I have not had so many people that cared about me in a very long time. Right now I smell like ass so I am going to take a shower and then perhaps catch up on some videos

Thanks again my dear friends

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fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

I cant hope to understand how you feel and I admire your courage in making this post Remember we are a loving and supportive community. I cry with you.

11 years ago

Alan....each day you inspire me. Thank you for sharing your story and letting us know that you are OK. Remember that you are part of a family here, it may be virtual but it is still family. And we stand with and support each other in a time of need. Hugs my friend....Thomas

bqhickory
bqhickory
11 years ago

really sorry to hear about ur friend :( and well sorry to say however i went once to a friends funeral and i really believe it will be last. it really was painful and i think the worst part was that there were allot of people there that i know didn't really care for her. (yea it was a female) and she was really one hell of person that is for sure anyway again sorry for lose. i do know true and real friends are hard to come. i am sure i can go on however i shall not and leave u with this u seem to be a very strong man and u will get thru this like have done everything else in ur life. be strong.

11 years ago

Thank you for sharing this with us. I can't imagine how painful this has been for you. I'm sad you had to go through this, but glad you were able to find the inner strength you needed.

11 years ago

Hi babe - jus want to offer u my sympathys for this HUGS (lucky shower!) hahaha but yeh i reckon u have come face to face with some lifestyle things an ya shuld try and learn from them