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sundancekid1212 Blog Last Activity 9 years ago 1.0K views 25 comments
<p>Wow this system is messed up bad.What i was trying to say is ive been struggling with the news that Jay a dear friend killed him self yesterday, his mom found him dead in his room. Jay had spent this summer with me and my friends here at the nudist resort. Jay was happy here making new gay frends young and older.He made a video tilling why he did what he did and why he took his life. He told his trusted friends that he spent his summer at a Gay/Family nudist resort with friends who also where gay. Will all hell broke loose all around Jay. Bullying getting beat up,and it gos on. Jay made a few fiends here on GBT and was like yes he was young,but he was gay too.Being Gay has no age boundaries and that is why i feel older brother and sisters should help our young Gay generation grow strong in our gay communitys. Even here on GBT iam bullyed for being young and gay and living in a gay nudist resort.Funny how that works. Most young people are not looking for sex thay are looking for understanding and friendship. Living in a gay nudist resort has given me the oppotunity to learn from older gay generation.Jay came here as a friend to have a good time and learn,but when your trusted friends turn on you for being gay lt is very sad we still live in fear to come out. Sundancekid will be gone soon and will never return. Ya iam young but iam also human and very much Gay with feelings. Rex</p>

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manoman13
9 years ago

Rex, this took my breath away again just like it did last year. I do not feel that I can improve on the things that most of the others have said. However, please know that I join the ranks of "if you want to chat or talk all you need to do is let me know." My perspective is perhaps different then some as I have been hanging around this planet for 60 yrs now (amazing..I can still write, think and not even drool..LOL) My prayers are with you Reg.

hairbear
9 years ago

████ It is very sad,when young guys do this...especially one's friend.??..but no-one has perfected a method/machine..to read other's thoughts..DAVE™..████

nate88
9 years ago

I am with Dennis. Have tried to reach Rex with NO SUCCESS - It's sad.......

9 years ago

This blog is over a year old. Although, I'm sure Rex is still greatly saddened about his friend's parting this world a year ago, he has had a year of mourning and healing time. I'm not so sure it was a good idea to bring this blog back at this time, but I surely understand and admire the heart felt comments and good intentions. Rex is bravely working it out and has wisely chosen to stay with us. I'm sure he has realized that life is so precious and special, even with the great pain it sometimes brings. I say this with great respect and love for everyone who has recently commented here. It's easy to not notice the date of the comments. I love all of you guys...and you too Rex. You're life is so precious and you, as a person, friend, and GBT member, means so much to all of us. Luv ya little buddy. (((hugs))) :Dennis

gm4yngr
9 years ago

Rex, thanks for sharing your feelings. I hope the sorrow of losing Jay will fade away quickly. Please stay and help keep this a great site. You can get advice from many of us here and the longer you stay the more you will be able to help others. Stay strong and try to smile whenever you can. Hugs, Fred

9 years ago

Rex it's so hard to know what to say that in reply to your saddening blog post. It's heartbreaking to hear about your friend Jay. A tragedy that should never ever ever happen but does all too frequently. There are just some incredibly selfish people in the world who judge others and make their lives miserable. Your own humanity comes through in your words, and both the world and GBT are much better with you in them. Warm hug and warm regards, Braedan

sex4usex4me
9 years ago

Really, really saddened by the news of Jay R.I.P my friend. Lil banana is right, young and old are here to help one another out here, we offer a shoulder to cry on, chat whenever you feel down, so Rex this is for you also we are all here to support you. I used to go to an Lgbt centre here and had always a group of teenagers in my company..... Why ? Because I was interested in their lives and them as a person, I was not a threat to them like other sleezebacks who were only interested in one thing, lots of times I protected them from these people. I disagree with Batmanmeetsrobin saying he took the " easy way out " it takes a lot of courage to take your own life. As we all know growing up being gay is not easy and coming to terms with it is difficult, but it will get better day by day Rex. Let's not forget about you Rex, you need plenty of support at this sad time also. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to Jay's family and friends. Keep strong for Jay, he wouldn't want you give up what is important to you....... John

9 years ago

Hey Rex this is the most hart breaking blog I've ever read here at GBT I"m so sorry for what your friend must have gone through ... I can see what you wrote here is straight from your heart, and I can't agree with you more one thing that stood out for me is "Most young people are not looking for sex thay are looking for understanding and friendship." That's exactly what I come to this site for, and I found it amongst the members at GBT both the young and the old. We all have something to offer each other. and that is our experience strength and hope. We need each other, yes the young and the old alike. I know i would have killed myself if not for the support I've got from this site, I also learned here that the older guys aren't perverts just trying to take advantage of me but that they were where I was, and where I am now, and know first hand just what I was going through, and yes they also understood that most of us younger guys are looking for friendship, and trying to understand what it is to be a lgbt person, and that it is alright to have feelings for people of the same gender. Yes I love this place , and the people here including you, we are helping one another to grow, and discover the freedom of self acceptance... Thank you for posting this, it is by far one of the most important blogs on this site for many reasons... Rex I know that what you are going through right now is very difficult, just know that I am here for you. I am truly sorry for your loss... RIP Jay

tj692
9 years ago

hey there is good and bad do not leave as just beginning to know you

10 years ago

there is lots of support,advice and friendship here for the taking ..too bad he took what he thought was the "easy way out". My thoughts are with his friends and family who don't understand this selfish act and the pain he has caused them for life. The point is when anyone is depressed or suicidal talk to some one get help.
we all have problems in life but SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER.

10 years ago

These awesome guys said it better than I ever could.

nate88
10 years ago

Hi Brother - Sending LOVE.....Andy xoxo

hotboy03
10 years ago

Hey Rex Its Chris feel so bad that Jay is not going be around any more I was nice person to chat with and get to know I know he was the best friend that you ever had I was so happy to give you And Jay so good support. If you need a friend like me to help and chat I am here buddy. If you do not want to I understand. Jay And will be mess he was so nice And I had a lot of fun chat with you And Jay having good talks And being a good friend and to help you guys out.
Tell your dad I was so nice of him to think of me as a good person that makes me fell so great inside thanks very much.
I am here buddy to chat any time OK.
From your very best Friend And Jays Love Chris.

10 years ago

Rex i no how it is had a friend on here he tryed to take his life but he is still alive cryed bukets of water on him i am so sorry for you

nate88
10 years ago

Rex - I am at a loss. NOTHING spoken can approach your feelings and pain. At times like this a true friend can only BE THERE as a friend to draw strength from. I have you - you will not fall. I have you by the hand and hold you in my heart. Love, kindness and caring - these are the things friends are made of. Our strength does not waiver......
PEACE, Andy xoxoxoxo

10 years ago

So sorry to hear about the tragic death of Jay; thoughts go out to his friends and family. Stay strong Rex, you have a lot of support here.

10 years ago

bro, check out blog of coolcock. should ease the pain a little! 8")

manoman13
10 years ago

What a terrible tragedy! My condolences to all of Jay's friends and family. Please, let's not let him die in vain!

10 years ago

so sad :( suicide is all too common among our gay brothers. that's why we must all stick together and support each other! if you're feeling depressed and alone, reach out and you'll find someone to comfort you so you can get thru the rough patch. we've all confronted our mortality and we all eventually shuffle off this mortal coil so we should live the "Auntie Mame" philosophy: "Life is a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death!". 8:)

anjinsan
10 years ago

Hi Rex, I'm so sad to read of the tragic death of your friend. It saddens me so much when I hear of people being treated in the way that he was, merely because of their sexuality. Something that none of us have any control over. Such a terribly sad waste of a beautiful young life. I remember when I was at school and the homophobic bullying that took place then. But that was in a differnt time. I keep hoping that people will finally understand the damage that they do. When I was a kid, there was a verse which everyone knew and kids were taught to chant it when they were verbally abused. It went: 'Sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me.' Sadly, it is completely wrong. Words are often the most deeply hurtful form of attack and they stay with you for many years. I know from personal experience. If there's any way in which I can be of help to you at this terrible time, please don't hesitate to message me and I will do all that I can. In the meantime, I send you all the love that I can and big hugs too. Stay strong,Rex. For your friend. We are all here for you, anytime you need us. Steve XOXOXOX

10 years ago

Rex...I too am so sorry for the loss of your friend Jay. And to reiterate what Dennis and Johnny have said below, there is a community here of people that care and support one another. Stay strong. Reach out when you need a shoulder.