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A Dauntless Daydream

EternalPhoenix Blog Last Activity 10 years ago 408 views 8 comments
<p>Have you ever left everything youv'e known behind to go somewhere where you could truly be happy? Sometimes I wish I could just pack up and fly aroud the globe to a place where I wont be judged for being who I am. Then I think that it probably doesn't exist. That I will always be judged. All I have ever wanted is to be happy. To walk the streets and hold that special boy or girls hand

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BATTLEFIELD3
10 years ago

The more you accept yourself, the less the judgements of others matter. But yes it is s good thing to have a 'safe' place to be yourself.

10 years ago

right HERE you are accepted as who you are..stay here and enjoy the many friends you might form with. As for in the street, there are countless places where you can walk and be you, just search them out, and the list is gradually growing as the dinosaurs and religious nut bars grow smaller. hugz to ya paparon xoxo

EternalPhoenix
10 years ago

Thanks guys.

mophead2009
10 years ago

my friend ive been there too(im a twin) i tried running away to new places -i knew i was different but the word gay was taboo - to start anew 700 miles away but still faced the same prejudices from college peers so it was only when i stood still and told myself this is who i am that i was happy - people still judge me for who i am even my twin bro which hurts but strangely my sister was accepting so my friend be yourself you will find friends but know that they come and go be at ease with yourself tc - giles

yrtrufrnd
10 years ago

very interesting blog...u will make many caring friends here me being one of them..i totally understand your situation since i am there also...not being out or openly gay i feel that sometimes it is better keeping you personal life private and share your fantasies behind closed doors...if u choose to be out and openly gay that is your choice and i respect your choice but you must then become part of the gay community to be totally accepted by all...open to chat anytime...been a mentor to many young guys...

swiftjohn
10 years ago

First of all, you don't rely on others to make you happy. Happiness comes from within - not from without. If you think someone else will bring you happiness then you will always be disappointed. If you're unhappy now, you will be unhappy where ever you go. People are always going to pursue their own self interest - including you - so you need to be realistic in your expectations of not only others but also of yourself. And your concern about being judged says that you allow others to tell you who you are. People are always going to judge you just as you are always going to judge. It's human nature to do so get used to it. The trick is to not give a flying fuck about what others think of you. I am happy when I have a hard cock pumping sperm in my mouth or ass. I am also happy when I don't. That is because I know who I am and I don't let others tell me who I am. If someone dislikes or disapproves of me then I simply tell them to go fuck themselves. May I suggest you study Buddhist philosophy, particularly the Zen branch. It just may wake you up from your delusions and you can discover who you really are. When you finally discover who you really are, you will then find happiness and peace. It worked for me.

10 years ago

Dare to dream the impossible dream! Sweet. ;--)))

EternalPhoenix
10 years ago

..continued.... without fear of being judged for who I am. The second I tell my family the way I feel I would lose every single one of them in an instant. That single thing hurts me the most. Do you know how it would feel to not have anyone? Not one single person? Many times I've cried myself to sleep at night hugging my pillow as if it could hug me back. Don't I have the right to be scared? Or am I still participating in the cultural delusion that everyone has a soul mate?