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glad you are feeling better Jordan talk anytime ;) hugz Ron

Hahahaha thanks, Mark :)

lol Jordan, you are clearly not stuck on red, but a flashing green light as far as i am concerned :) xx

Aww shucks... you guys! heheh. Love ya ((hugs)) (no.. it's not my impression of a traffic light... really is me going red! lol)

here here. Jordan is fab guy. luv him to bits. been a friend of mine for ages but not really spoken to him much until this weekend. a lovely guy and will be a friend of mine for ages to come. luv ya Jordan. talk soon babe. xxx

Great advise Buddy .XOXO

Update: After a lay down... I've not long woken up (40 mins ago) and although sore, I'm doing okay. I just wanted to say a BIG thanks to everyone for their kind messages. Love ya, guys :)

praying for your health to improve. thank for sharing!

Aww thanks, Paul ((hugs)) xx

I am relieved to read you are feeling better, even if your depression hasn't gone away. I expect your recent "sleep free zone" didn't help and probably contributed to your condition. As you live alone, work from home ( being self employed can also be very stressful ) and don't have an immediate family to look after you, I can also see why you feel lonely and upset. As the Doc. has said - rest up my friend ( the offer of my spare room still exists )and start to think some good thoughts. Peace and love my friend. PaulX

Hiya Sumpterz. Thanks for that.. yes, it was checked out in the end, they sorted me out (after a telling off) and I'm back home resting :)

gee Jordan, very sorry to hear. glad you finally had it checked out. hope u can get some good rest now.

Stress... it's a bugger. I have had so much on my mind lately that I pure forgot what living was all about. Seriously, guys! As you may have noticed (for those who know me well) I was not about much yesterday. I had some very sharp pains in my chest which I thought was nothing... so, ignored it. Bad mistake. You're aware I suffer from severe depression and self harm, right? Then please... take it from me.. Friendships are precious, and brings you closer as a community. Harsh words, upset and torment brings you NOTHING but more pain. Why am I telling you this? Easy... I wasn't here because I was in hospital. I had a problem which I never expected... and nearly had a full blown stroke. I'm not telling you for sympathy.. I'm telling you because as your friend, I don't want you ending up like me. I am now feeling very much alone, upset and can't explain how I feel other than that. YOU guys are the closest to family I have. Please don't go falling out with each other!!! I love each and every one of you no matter where you are. I don't know what my future holds right now, but I am sure as heck determined to get through this providing this *£&"£ depression doesn't finish me off first! hahaha. Right.. that's me done and now I'll go return to resting. I'll be about though. I not long ago got home from hospital so I'm cold! hahaha. Love ya, guys xxxx