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<p>I wonder where I'm going? I suddenly feel lost and stupid, after 8 days of extreme sexual excitation and enthusiasm. Little down after the high, like if the party was ending. After a long dream, Reality is quite depressing. I think I should go on and make a new fetish vid, to renew the pleasure I experienced at first, but could it work again? Maybe the solution for me is to go deeper and deeper into fetishism and masochism, till I'll be like an animal, a pet-dog, totally whipped out of my mind and my self. Maybe it's not a good idea. I have a very good life, earn money, have nice and intelligent friends, easily find someone who fucks me when I want to, I'm a very lucky guy, nevertheless I desperately whish I could be anyone else. It's time for shooting a new vid.</p>