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I had been in University in Scotland for a week or more, and i was a bit lonely, trying to find my way around the Campus was a pain. I saw a note on the notice board in my 'House', stating that a Skateboard Park was now open, so I asked a passing student if he knew where it was, and he pointed me in the right direction, it was quite a way from where i resided, i found it, and quite a crowd had gathered to watch the boys, and girls Skate.

Someone shouted 'Ben, Over here!' I ignored it and carried on watching, suddenly a hand gripped my shoulder, and I spun round ready to defend myself, and a tall, tousled-haired boy looked startled and said, ' Sorry, I thought you were someone else,' at that point, he turned to his right and said, 'Look Ben, you have a double!' and as he said that, a face loomed into my gaze and we both froze. I was looking into my own mirror image. Call it what you will, love at first sight, in my case yes, old souls meeting again, who knows, anyway, I have no idea how long we looked at each other, but the boy, who I now know as Tyler, said, 'Are you guys OK?' that ended the freeze, Ben held out his hand, I looked down at it and took it and he beamed, for the next hour we chatted about everything, Tyler was forgotten,

This boy was my twin brother from another mother, he was mesmerizing, is aura encircled me, I had never been as alive as this, I could hardly hear what he was saying, my heart was beating so hard, 'Rory' he asked, 'Are you alright?' I nodded blushing slightly, we were sitting on a picnic bench near the park, the late Autumn sun creating a halo around his head. 'Sorry Ben,' I said looking at him, ' I was lost in the moment for a while.' he smiled at me, ' I know, isn't it amazing.' and he smiled at me, 'What are you doing tonight,' he asked me, I told him i was going to the Lions Head, a favorite pub with the students, 'I will meet you there at 7.30 OK?' I nodded and he rose and hugged me tightly, his cheek against mine, as if it was a normal thing to hug a virtual stranger, he then left with the wisps of his charisma floating after him.

I got up and saw Tyler, I had to know more about this extraordinary boy who looked like me, he saw me approach and laughed,' Ah, the Ben effect,' he said smiling, i had a grin ear to ear, Tyler filled me in on Ben, he was one of the most popular boys on campus, he was 19, so a year older than me, he was loyal to his friends, of which there were legion, but very loyal to his very close friends, of which, he assured me, i was now one of them,' How do you know that?' I asked, he looked at me and said, 'In the two years I have known Ben, he has never spent an hour talking to any guy, especially a stranger' I was heartened, he went on to tell me that he was a legend for his sexual prowess with women, and my heart sank,

I took my leave and went back to my twin bed dorm with me the only occupant. I had told the Bursar when i enrolled, that I was gay, and was listed as so, so no straight boy was going to dorm with me, and, as I have a Birthday on Christmas Day, i joined the Uni midterm, so everybody else was well ensconced. I sat on my bed and pondered this phenomenon which was Ben. He had, without realizing it, stolen a piece of my heart, and I was very sad, i knew he was straight, i could sense it, and I also knew that i could fall deeply in love with him, I just knew it, there was no doubt in my mind, and a tear pricked my eyes and i stroked it away, There was no way I could get close to this beautiful boy, it would break my heart. So i decided not to go to the Pub that night, i went to the Student bar and talked to a shy, very sweet boy called Bobby, and we spent a quiet night together just chatting.Over the next week, i heard nothing from Ben and was relieved that it was a flash in the pan, but my heart ached to see him again, i just went on with my studies quietly, going to every lecture, with Bobby coming to my dorm for a drink as my only distraction. Then on a Saturday, Bobby knocked on my door, 'Hi Rory, there's a note on the board for you.' intrigued i asked, 'What does it say,?' 'Oh something about Ben and his dorm number,' I shot passed Bobby and ran down the stairs and yes, there it was, it just said simply. 'Rory, Ben is in Elgin House, Dorm 34C, Thank you! '

I shot back upstairs passed a startled Bobby, ran into my dorm, had a shower, and, dressed in clean clothes, walked quickly, the quite considerable distance to Ben's dorm, ( the campus is Huge). i walked the three flights to his dorm room, my legs were trembling, I knocked on his door with some trepidation, the door flew open Ben stood there, he beamed at me, 'Rory,' he cried and pulled me into his arms, he held me very tight, 'Thank God.' was all he said, he took me into his dorm room and sat me on his bed, he looked at me reached forward and pecked me on the lips, 'What happened,' he asked simply. and we both realized we hadn't told each other, in all the excitement, anything personal about each other, no surnames, what we were reading, even what Houses we were in, Ben laughed, 'I was angry at first when you didn't turn up then i thought you didn't like me.' and he looked at me and i felt tears at my eyes, ' how could I not possibly like you,'? I blurted out,' and he pulled me towards him and hugged me, he pushed me gently to arms length and wiped away my tears,' I will never make you cry again,' he said earnestly, and reached forward and kissed me on the lips, not a kiss you would give a woman, but a kiss for a dear friend, and I was so happy. We chatted, for hours, I asked him how he knew where i lived, and he said he didn't and had stuck notes on all the notice boards in every dorm, we laughed, friends and his dorm room buddy came and went, all of them did a double take when they saw us, and to them all he said, 'didn't you know i had a twin?' and we both giggled, like school girls, as the night wore on, i told him I had to leave, him, taking no chances, accompanied me to my dorm, just so he knew exactly where i lived, he hugged me and asked me to meet him and his friends for breakfast in the canteen, i happily agreed and he hugged me tightly again and was gone.