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chris1993
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- About Me: ... there's nothing about e anymore, i'm done with GBT! SILENT ECHOES (The End) I’m coming home, coming back to my love, and find an empty place, seem to be deserted. I was wondering about the dark weird clouds covering this part of the world when I approached. I shout the names of some friends, but I got no reply. No one is here anymore, I feel lonely and look around. This is not my home anymore. What happened to this place? What happened to our home? I rewind the good times, I rewind the bad times. Looking backwards my memories of the good times are much more present. I had fun, I got hurt, I had friends, I lost friends, I felt home, I felt alone, but i found love. Love was all around, people took care, we had a big family. But now … I feel dizzy, I shiver, I’m freezing. This place is desolate, bleak, boring, loveless and dead. My heart is heavy, where is he? Frightened and uncertain my eyes try to find a sign of life, only a small sparkle of hope. A slightly cough comes from behind a corner, I look around and on a bench hidden behind a miserable dead tree I notice a creature taking a nervous puff of his cigarette. I come closer and he looks up to me. “Hey Chris, you’re back?” The voice sounds familiar, but this cannot be, I take another look and god help me, a pale and emaciated face is staring at me, I can hardly recognize him, one of my friends. “You? God, what happened to you?” “The war, it was like hell.” He throws his cigarette careless behind. “Where have you been?” “I was busy with studying and you know what happened the last time I was here, I needed some distance to fight with my demons, but it was only four weeks ago, this could not happen in such a short time.” “You have no idea, it started weeks before you left, first slowly, but the signs where all around and we ignored them.” “But how could it come so far?” “First there were only some words, some guys changed arguments, they used hurtful words, they insulted and dissed, but it seemed to be harmless, it was fun between only a few guys, but innocent get involved, they caused suffering and pain, people get hurt, wounds and scars remained. Remember, you were hurt.” “Yes, I know, but they didn’t want to hurt me, they were just joking and didn’t think that their words could hurt me or anyone else, they were playing their own game.” “That’s the point, they didn’t look at the consequences, maybe it was only a game, but it turned into a battle and escalated into a war that no one could win.” “But there are so many good guys taking care, stopping the fights. There is you.” “Some of them were infected by the virus and started new fights themselves, some of our friends got unmasked and showed their real faces. It was horrible. I couldn’t do anything, it was hopeless, I was helpless. Every day one of us capitulated or disappeared. I couldn’t count the victims anymore, your boyfriend was the last. Wherever I fought against a fire, a hundred others kindled around me. I surrendered.” His voice got tearful and he lights another cigarette. A few seconds ago I thought I can see a sparkle of hope in his eyes, but I am wrong, his eyes are starring expressionless to the other site of the place. He doesn’t attend me anymore, he doesn’t even notice me. He turned into one of them. What have you done to this place? What have you done to our home? The war of words washed away everything that meant a lot to me. The good ones are gone, some zombies and bullies stayed. Turning around and leaving, my steps are the only noises, silent echoes subside, the only trace left. I don’t look back. A lonely tear searching its way down my cheek, I will miss this place, i will miss the last few friends I’m leaving. It was always good to come back home, but sometimes it’s time to say goodbye, time for a new start. A cold wind is blowing behind me, I turn up the collar, winter is coming. I hear steps in front of me, a shadow is coming closer. It’s weird, I’m not scared, i feel save. My love. No word. Just one kiss and he takes my hand. Together we’re leaving. The echoes of our steps disappear. Silent echoes. (CA)
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