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I knew I was different probably from age 5 and not being interested in boy activities.  Around age 10 I thought Ricky Nelson and Luke Halperin from Flipper on TV to be very attractive.  Loved Ricky's eyes and Luke's abs and cut offs.  Around 11 I was drawn toward always looking at one of my classmates who had a beautiful bubble butt outlined in his tight pants and of course, started enjoying looking at how large my classmates bulges were getting, sometimes hiding boners.  Frequently checked out boys changing through knotholes in walls between wooden changing booths at the lake we often went to in summer. Got turned out by looking a 11 year old friend in his speedo and in his tighty whites during a sleepover.  But frustratingly, due to moving, actual sex with this same guy would not come until much later. 

I don't know if is I differently? I not nothing with anyone. Scary to me. Is I OK here?

OK, had to say that first.  But, of course this blog is about homoerotic feelings toward other boys. That would be the same answer I guess (first going to school, kindergarten), and I have foggy memories of earlier attractions to neighborhood boys.

When my older brother started trying to kill me.  My memories only recall the first memories of his deeds in kindergarten (ages 4-5), but it may have started earlier.  

I felt different in many ways while growing up. The first crush I had was with an older boy when I was about 5. It wasn't due to sexual thoughts. I just really wanted his friendship to be all MINE. I thought, "Back off girls, he's my friend!" I didn't feel for all boys this way, only him at that point.

When i noticed i had a vagina!!!

I'm different?? Dang, now I get it! :-)

When i was like 9 years old and the nextdoor neighbor warned me to watch out for the kid down the street that was our age, but he liked to "play love" with the other boys in the neighborhood.  He was spending the summer with his dad and i was bummed i didn't get to meet him, lol.

i was 14 and even then was not sure what it meant to like guys.

Looking back on it, probably when I was 8 or 9. Looking at certain boys made me tingle & gave me this funny feeling inside, like butterflies, almost a little dizzying sometimes. I had crushes on certain boys. I didn't get the fuss that other boys made about girls. Probably about the time I was 10, I would get a boner looking at certain boys. And when I saw another boy with a boner for the first time, I was just crazy aroused and hard as a rock, and pretty much knew for sure. That never happened with a girl, at least not with that intensity.

When I woke up on a table with electrodes on my neck while my father was shouting "It's Alive!".

Around the age 12 or so in junior high school the excitement of locker room when we all stripped down to get to our PE uniforms.  Trying not pull hard on putting our jockstraps.

i think i always knew i was different however i think i was like 13 and i was in gym class and well after gym we all had to take showers :) :) and well when everybody was undressing i kept staring at there cocks and well i got a hard on and well never took a shower just left and at 14 is when i got my first blow job from a man that was much oilder and i loved it then at 15 i think one of my older brothers woke me up by playing with my cock and then he put his cock in my mouth and loved it. so started playing with friends however it was NEVER talked about at 18 when i went to prison i met my first lover he was 2 years older then me and he had a huge cock omg huge and he wanted to fuck me and i was like ok and it hurt and i cried and he asked if i he should stop and i said hell no we stayed lovers for about 20 years and well he is still my friend to date and my roommate he is a great man that is for sure. 

I'm not different.    Everyone's bi whether they realize it or naught...