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I had been in University in Scotland for a week or more, and I was a bit lonely, trying to find my way around the Campus was a pain. Unlike fetters, where I knew many boys because of family connections, here, I knew no-one, and I missed Jaimie and Jon very much.

I saw a note on the notice board in my 'House', stating that a Skateboard Park was now open, so I asked a passing student if he knew where it was, and he pointed me in the right direction.

It was quite away from where I resided, I found it, and quite a crowd had gathered to watch the boys, and girls Skate.

Most of them wore helmets and knee and elbow guards but the best of them just wore t-shirts and shorts, I was fully engrossed.

Someone shouted 'Ben, Over here!' I ignored it and carried on watching, suddenly a hand gripped my shoulder, and I spun around ready to defend myself, and a tall, tousled-haired boy looked startled and said,

'Sorry, I thought you were someone else,' at that point, he turned to his right and said, 'Look, Ben, you have a double!' and as he said that, a face loomed into my gaze and we both froze.

I was looking into my own mirror image. This boy and I just stared at each other saying nothing.

Call it what you will, love at first sight, in my case, yes.Old souls meeting again? Who knows, anyway, I have no idea how long we looked at each other, but the boy, who I now know as Tyler, said,

'Are you guys OK?' that ended the freeze,

Ben held out his hand, I looked down at it and took it and he beamed, for the next hour we chatted about everything, Tyler was forgotten,

This boy was my twin-brother-from-another-mother, he was mesmerizing, his blue eye's bored into mine, is aura encircled me, I had never been as alive as this, we wre in our own private bubble.

I could hardly hear what he was saying, my heart was beating so hard, I felt faint.

'Rory' he asked, 'Are you alright?' I nodded blushing slightly, we were sitting on a picnic Table near the park, the late Autumn sun creating a halo around his blond head.

'Sorry Ben,' I said looking at him, 'I was lost in the moment for a while.' he smiled at me,

'I know, isn't it amazing.' and he grinned, he was holding my hand as he talked to me, animated.

'What are you doing tonight,' he asked me, I told him I was going to the Lions Head, a favourite pub with the students,

'I will meet you there at 7.30 OK?' I nodded and he rose and hugged me tightly, his cheek against mine, as if it was a normal thing to hug a virtual stranger, then he pecked me on the lips which startled me, he then left with the wisps of his charisma floating after him.

I got up and saw Tyler, I had to know more about this extraordinary boy who looked just like me, he saw me approach and laughed,'

'Ah, the Ben effect,' he said smiling, I had a grin ear to ear,

Tyler filled me in on Ben, he was one of the most popular boys on campus, he was 19, so a year older than me, he was loyal to his friends, of which there were legion, but very loyal to his very close friends, of which, he assured me, I was now one of them,

'How do you know that?' I asked, he looked at me and said,

'In the two years I have known Ben, he has never spent an hour talking to any guy, especially a stranger'

I was heartened, he went on to tell me that he was a legend for his sexual prowess with women, and my heart sank,

But I already knew, I could sense this boy was straight, my 'gaydar' hadn't pinged at all, even in paradise a little rain must fall, it would have been too perfect if he were.

I took my leave and went back to my very comfortable twin bed dorm with me the only occupant and had a long slow wank.

I had told the Bursar when I enrolled that I was gay, and was listed as so, no straight boy was going to share a dorm with me, and, as I have a Birthday on Christmas Day, I joined the Univesity midterm, so everybody else was well ensconced.

I sat on my bed and pondered this phenomenon which was Ben.

He had, without realizing it, stolen a piece of my heart, and I was very sad, I knew he was straight, and I also knew that I could fall deeply in love with him, I just knew it, there was no doubt in my mind, and a tear pricked my eyes and I stroked it away,

There was no way I could get close to this beautiful boy, it would break my heart.

I decided not to go to the Pub that night, I went to the Student bar and talked to a shy, stunningly handsome, very sweet boy called Bobby, and we spent a quiet night together just chatting and drinking my single malt.

Over the next week, I heard nothing from Ben and was relieved that it was a flash in the pan, but my heart ached to see him again, I dreamt about him every night, waking up sad and lost.

I just went on with my studies quietly, going to every lecture, with Bobby coming to my dorm for a drink as my only distraction.

Bobby intrigued me, he was that type of pure Celt, jet black hair, olive skin and bright blue eyes, every time he looked at me they stabbed my heart.

He was very cute but painfully shy, even a glancing blow from my hand or arm made him wince.

Then on a Saturday, Bobby knocked on my door,

'Hi Rory, there's a note on the board for you.' intrigued I asked, 'What does it say,?'

'Oh, something about Ben and his dorm number,'

I shot passed Bobby and ran down the stairs and yes, there it was, it just said simply. 'Rory, Ben is in Elgin House, Dorm 34C, Thank you! '

I shot back upstairs passed a startled Bobby, ran into my dorm, undressed and jumped in the shower, I soaped my hair and rubbed it vigorously, when I had rinsed off the soap suds and opened my eyes, Bobby was standing in the doorway staring at my cock, which is long and thick even when flaccid.

I laughed at the blushing Bobby, handed him a towel and asked him to dry my back, which he did, he followed me into my room and watched as I dressed, I said he could stay but to lock up after he left I was so happy I hugged him, he stiffened, I laughed and let him go.

I walked quickly, the quite considerable distance to Ben's dorm, (the campus is Huge).

I climbed the three flights to his dorm room, my legs were trembling, I knocked on his door with some trepidation, the door flew open Ben stood there, he beamed at me,

'Rory,' he cried and pulled me into his arms, he held me very tight and kissed me.

'Thank God.' was all he said, he took me into his dorm room and sat me on his bed, he looked at me reached forward and pecked me on the lips again.

'What happened,' he asked simply. and we both realized we hadn't told each other, in all the excitement, anything personal about each other, no surnames, what we were reading, even what Houses we were in,

Ben laughed, 'I was angry at first when you didn't turn up then I thought you didn't like me.' and he looked at me and I felt tears in my eyes,

'How could I not possibly like you,'? I blurted out,' and he pulled me towards him and hugged me, he pushed me gently to arm's length and wiped away my tears,

' I will never make you cry again,' he said earnestly, and reached forward and kissed me on the lips, not a kiss you would give a woman, but a kiss for a best friend, and I was so happy.

We chatted, for hours, I asked him how he knew where I lived, and he said he didn't and had stuck notes on all the notice boards in every dorm,

We laughed, friends, and his dorm room buddy, Peter came and went, all of them did a double take when they saw us, and to them all he said,

'Didn't you know I had a twin?' and we both giggled like school girls, as the night wore on, I told him I had to leave, Ben, taking no chances, accompanied me to my dorm, arm in arm, it was surreal.

He wanted to accompany me so he knew exactly where I lived, we walked up to my dorm, I unlocked the door and walked in. Ben frowned when he saw the spare bed.

'I live alone Ben,' he smiled and started to undress.

'Ben, what are you doing'? he finished undressing and stood there in a pair of dark blue silk boxers.

He was broad shouldered with rippling abs and a light tan, just like me, the similarities were uncanny.

'Well, I thought I would stay the night, then we can carry on chatting, you don't mind do you?'

This was a dilemma, I had to tell him about my sexuality before e got too close to me. It was do-or-die, I had no choice.

'Ben, you had better sit down, I have something very important to tell you and you're not going to like it.'

His smile faded, he joined me on my bed, his closeness, almost naked, made me tremble.

'Ben, I am gay!' Ben just looked at me and then pulled me to him and hugged me. he then pushed me away he seemed angry, had it sunk in what I had said? Was this it, was this friendship over?

'Don't you ever frighten me like that again! I thought you were going to tell me you had cancer or something!' I just sat there dumbfounded.

'Don't you mind?''

Ben smiled, 'Of course not, you don't mind that I straight do you?'' he looked really concerned.

 I smiled and shook my head, Ben stood up and started to strip me. I held his hand.

'Ben, what are you doing?' he looked up, 'Preparing you for bed then we can have a long chat.' before long I too stood there in, my 'Superman' boxers, Ben laughed.

'How old are you Rory, 12?' '18, I said embarrassed, 'My Brother Edmond gave me these for my Birthday at Christmas. 'Do you want some pyjamas?' I asked him.

Ben looked at me, 'Do you wear them?' I shook my head. 'No I sleep naked.

With that Ben slipped his boxers off and kicked them with his other clothes, I looked at him, he had a cock as big as mine, possibly bigger.

I dropped my boxers blushing slightly, his forwardness, typical of a straight boy had me dithering. With that, he walked over to my bed got in and dragged me with him.

To say I was astonished would be an understatement, he then wrapped his arm and leg across me and kissed me, I had to move his leg up, I was getting a throbbing hard-on and I didn't want to put him off.

We chatted and were equally amazed that both our fathers were Scottish Earls, all the time he would stroke my hair and occasionally kiss me. I had to say something.

'Ben?', he stopped talking and looked at me. 'You do remember when I said I was gay don't you?' he nodded, 'and you said you were straight?' he nodded again, 'Well why do you keep kissing me?'

Ben looked surprised by the question, 'Don't brothers kiss, especially twins?' 

I laughed, 'I suppose they do and wank each other off as well' I joked, Ben looked at me, 'Really?' he reached under the sheet for my cock, I stopped him.

'Ben, I was joking, you have a brother, didn't you kiss him?' he looked a little sad, I didn't know why at that time, but I would find out in the future.

'He's ten years older than me, we weren't very close.' he went off to boarding school when I was two, and came back when I was 12 then went to Eaton, I can honestly say I hardly know him.'

Ben turned suddenly and said, 'You don't mind me kissing you do you.? his eyes searched mine. I assured him I didn't, (it was wonderful, a dream.) and before I could say anymore he kissed me again, this time a full kiss, I pushed him away.

'Ben, I don't think brothers kiss like that even twins!' Ben looked really sad,' They don't?'

'No Ben only lovers do.' Ben looked at me, he had tears in his eyes.

'Do you want me to leave?' I couldn't believe he was THAT upset, I just pulled him to me and kissed him very hard, so hard it gave me another hard-on.

'Ben I was joking, of course, twins kiss like that, kiss me again.!' he did, for ages, my cock throbbed, it felt wonderful, like kissing a mirror only warm and very horny.

He broke off, 'That was good Rory, did you like it.?' I smiled, 'BEN I'm GAY, of course, I liked it.!'

Ben frowned, I didn't mean it to be like that, I am sorry, was it too much?' I laughed, 'Well don't kiss me like that in public, people will talk,' Ben smiled, 'Then you don't mind in private?'

I shook my head, with that he clamped his lips to mine only me grabbing his hand and placing it on my hard cock stopped him.

Ben said, 'Oh, I see what you mean,' I felt his, totally flaccid.

'You see the difference between us Ben, for me that gave me a hard-on I could control , for you, nothing!'

I took the opportunity to hold his cock fully in my hand, just to make my point. It felt wonderful and huge.

Ben looked at me with dilated pupils, just as Jaimie and Jon did, that was the first inkling I had that this boy loved me. but I was so confused by the mixed messages. just then the door knocked.

I got up and slipped on my boxers and opened the door and Bobby stood there, he glanced over to Ben in my bed, did a double take, and looked bewildered.

'Bobby, you don't know my twin brother Ben, do you? Bobby shook his head and smiled at Ben, 'Sorry to bother you, Rory, I didn't realise you had company, I will see you tomorrow.' and with that, he was gone.

I shut the door, returned to Ben, got in bed, Ben took off my boxers and said.

'See everyone will think we are twins, and you have accepted it?' I nodded, he was so elated he kissed me again,

I put his hand on my cock just to remind him what was happening to me, he stopped kissing me, 'Do you want me to get a hard-on Rory, I don't mind.' I removed his hand from my cock again.

Ben, go and sleep in the spare bed, or you might find me sucking your cock when your asleep.' I smiled to show I was joking. Ben Looked at me. 'Do you want to, I won't mind.

'BEN, fuck off to the other bed this has gone too far, you're supposed to be my new twin brother, not my lover, that's what you want, why are you willing to go against your nature just to please me?'

(this was something that had me baffled for months, that he would do anything to please me, the visit to his home answered all my questions.)

Ben seemed stunned, 'Sorry Rory, I wasn't thinking straight, I just want you to know how much I care for you, I want us to be twins, is that so bad?' He looked forlorn, I just hugged him very tight.

'Of course not Ben, but just remember that I am gay and any sort of sexy behaviour between us makes me long for you and that must never happen, I will not allow you to go against your nature just for me. Now go to your bed and let's get somesleep.'

Ben rose reluctantly, and walked over to his bed, I could hear his cock hit each thigh as he walked. He got in and I turned off the light.

'Rory, I will leave early in the morning to get changed, I won't disturb you, will you come tomorrow and meet the team for breakfast?'

I echoed him, 'The team?' Yes, my close friends we always have breakfast together in the canteen, do you mind?' I arose from the bed padded to him in the moonlight, bent down and kissed him passionately.

'Anything for my twin brother.' I saw a flash of white teeth and I knew he was happy.

I walked back to my bed, waited a short while and wanked slowly and silently, pumping my spunk on my own private 'Superman' boxers.

When I awoke he was gone, but I had a dim memory of someone kissing me just before dawn.