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So Ben left me, and I spent a happy hour wanking and recalling our conversation, the kisses, feeling his cock and the love in his eyes, I showered and dressed in my best clothes,

I was about to meet the 'Gang' as Ben called it, I called it Team Ben, and they sounded formidable,

I walked down to the mess hall, many people I passed said 'Hi Ben!' and I smiled, it seemed we were more alike than I could imagine,

I scanned the canteen and I could see Ben surrounded by eager faces, he saw me, 'Rory, over here,' he shouted above the noisy Canteen, and that sea of faces turned to me in unison, and as I got closer to them they all gasped,

'Look,' Ben said showing me off, 'didn't I tell you, here is my gay twin brother' and he grinned at me, he ran towards me and hugged me and kissed me, much to the surprise of 'the 'Gang' I slapped his shoulder for telling them I was gay, he whispered, 'You might get some offers you never know.'

I was introduced to each one it turns,

Danny, the Cool Essex Skater boy with bright emerald green eyes, working class but a genius with computers,

Bobby, not the one I had befriended the past week, but a stunning black haired boy with bright hazel eyes,

Gary, a stunningly handsome boy with white blond hair from Edinburgh, Tyler, I had already met, Cathy bubbly and cute and a few others, including a  bevvy of lovely girls.

They were astonished, he finished with Sammy, his current girlfriend,

Beautiful, a tall blond, with flawless skin and a dazzling smile,

'He never told us,' she said smiling up at me, 'Told you what?' I asked just slightly bemused, 'that he had a gay twin hidden away,'

I didn't know what to say, I was slightly annoyed he had 'outed' me without asking me first.

I looked at Ben and he winked at me,

' Well, I said he always been ashamed of my sexuality so he never introduces me to his friends.'

I thought I would get back at him for telling them all I was gay.

They all turned to Ben with disapproving eyes, he turned to me grinning, getting the joke.

'But he is Ok with me now we slept together naked in the same bed last night wrapped around each other all night long'

Ben blushed, I laughed but the blush wasn't lost on Sammy.

'Seriously though,'Ben doesn't want to share the limelight.' and Ben burst out laughing and explained to them that I wasn't his twin brother just a very good friend who uncannily looked very much like him.

They stood there with their mouths open, looking from Ben to me, they still thought he was kidding, so I took out my wallet and showed them a photo of my large family, and they were convinced,

Sammy piped up, 'So you didn't sleep together last night, we truthfully said we didn't, she didn't look convinced, 'But I just saw Ben kiss you,'

'Well you know Ben best Sammy he makes friends easily.'

She smiled, 'Quite, but I have never seen him kiss a boy before!'

'And if you met your 'twin' Sammy how would you behave towards her?

The gang laughed and Samantha got the message and shut up, Danny made an interesting observation.

'I would be fucking my twin twice a day!' Everyone, including me, stared at him until he blushed.

'Just an observation that's all, and we all laughed. Ben piped up. 'Rory's free.' which had him blushing even more and he smiled at me shyly, I winked at him. before me, he was Ben's best friend.

But from that time on, I was the one Ben was closest to, even if Sammy was there, he walked alongside me with his arm around my shoulder, or if we walked in public, holding my hand,

It was all very surreal but I loved the attention from Ben and as the months passed, I, and many others, realized that I was madly in love with him.

Ben was oblivious to my state of mind, and after three months of being constantly in his company, I had a sort of breakdown, nothing serious but I could cry at a drop of a hat, and that wasn't like me,

I decided to cool it with Ben and the Gang, just see them once every two days, and the very first day I didn't show up, Ben turned up at my dorm and knocked.

'Rory, are you alright?' I opened the door, he looked very concerned, he walked forward and hugged me, he could see I had been weeping,

'What's' happened?' he looked really worried, I told him I was a little run down, and that I would be OK when I had some sleep, he undressed including my boxers, helped me to bed and held my hand,

I told him to go to his friends, but he wouldn't hear of it and said something, which I was often confused about, 'What! leave my brother.' he said shaking his head, it was if he really believed it.

He stripped naked and got in bed with me, wrapped himself completely around me and ran his fingers through my hair and kissed me,

I didn't bother moving his leg from my hardon, if he hadn't got the message by now he never would.

I awoke in the morning and he was gone, but I could spell his presence on my sheets.

I remembered sometime during the night, him lying on me with his head on my shoulder fast asleep, what had woken me was a very large rock hard  'presence' pressed against my thigh.

Another week passed and I had to do something, so I told the gang I was going home for a week to see my family,

'I will come with you,' Ben piped up, 'I would really like to meet them,' I, couldn't win,

Ben was all excited to have a week alone with me, Sammy less so. I rang my parents telling them about Ben and that we were coming up for a week, they were looking forward to meeting him.

I just worried how this would work out, seeing Ben a couple of times a day was agony form me, how would 24/7 hold up?

We drove to my parent's estate in Ben's Alfa and Ben said, '

I have just realized that my Father knows your Father, and I said

'How so,' and he said 'isn't he the Procurator Fiscal for his Burroughs?' and I said yes he is,

'So is my Father for ours,' and it was true I found out from my own Father, it was another freaky coincidence.

Anyway we arrived and my parents were taken aback by our resemblance, the week went perfectly,

Just having Ben, to myself was a tonic, and we roamed the estate talking to the people who lived on it including, Jon and Jamie, my childhood lovers, they jumped into my arms and hugged and kissed me, much to Ben's amusement,

'You're, not the only one who loves me, Ben',

Did I see a hint of jealousy in his eyes? he sort of strode off with me running after him like a fool.

They too were all bemused by this 19-year-old boy who mirrored my own image,

Ben and I spent twenty-four hours together, even sleeping in the same room, my parent's had offered him Richards room next to mine, Ben, with his usual candour said.

'It's okay I will sleep with Rory, we sleep together at University!'

To say my parents were surprised is putting it mildly.

It was like a sort of honeymoon without the sex, but he showered with me, as he did with his own brothers, and happily soaped my back and bum ignoring my hard-on in front,

He was natural as anyone could be, so natural that I had to ask him not to wash my hard dick or I might cum while he did it, which made him giggle

'Carry on, I don't mind!' is all he said, and I would tease him,

'How about giving me a blowjob while your down there and I could come in your mouth, it's what a twin would do.' and he would blush and smack my bottom, but nothing fazed him.

One night about mid-week, I had popped into the bathroom, I just had to have a wank,

The sight of Ben was lying face down naked on my double bed Skyping Samantha, was too much for me.

she was suggesting a little mutual masturbation Skype time and he had said,

'I don't think Rory would be too impressed!' and she said,

'Tell him to go to his bedroom, Ben had replied,

This his bedroom, and his bed,' Sammy said, 'well go to yours, honest Ben had said,

'We're sharing a room and bed. and Sammy had sworn and logged off just as I came back in.

Ben was trying to get her back, I just jumped on top of his back placed my still spunky cock between his buttocks and humped him quite hard,

He obviously felt my hard cock sliding between his bum cheeks but just giggled.

I whispered in his ear,

'I can show you a good time big boy' and he had giggled again, reached around and kissed me, I apologised for leaving a trace of my spunk between his, legs, he wasn't fazed at all,

'Do you want to lick it off?' he asked me,

I jumped on him, pried his sweet bum cheeks apart with my hands an started to rim him, he was really shocked,

Not like you would think, that I was rimming him, very forcibly too, you know, getting my tongue deep into him,

No, he was shocked only because it had never happened to him before, and was a matter of fact about it.

It still didn't stop him kissing me as soon as I gave up and got off.

I also had to ask him not to kiss me in front of the family, I was getting some questioning looks.

My Ben is that natural a boy, he loved me and besides shagging me, anything went, he loved me that much, which was fucking frustrating as hell for me, especially as I had never actually seen him with a hard-on.

I asked him did he ever masturbate, he looked at me puzzled and said,

'No, I have Sammy,' as an explanation,

I just gave up and stopped trying to catch him at it, so all the time we shared a room and bed that week, I must have cum three or four times a day, him, none.

My parents adored him and when we left for Uni the following Sunday, everybody hugged everyone else and Ben became a member of my family which he still is to this day, this is only two years ago.

Now today, Ben doesn't even tell my parents when he is coming up he just turns up like my own siblings and is fully accepted as if he was born my brother, especially as we dress almost identically.

'It's really odd to see my older brothers and sisters talking to him, and say do you remember so and so, he asked for you yesterday, and Ben looked completely confused because they were referring to one of my childhood friends, it's all a bit baffling.

Another month passed and I spoke with Ben and lied that my grades were slipping and that I had to concentrate more on my studies, and that I could only see him, and the gang about three times a week, and he looked really hurt,

'I love you, don't you love me anymore?' he, asked and I could see he was really very upset,

I reached to him and kissed him, on the lips in front of everybody, Sammy was less than impressed,'

Of course Ben, How could you be in any doubt about that?' I looked at him very tenderly,

'My Brother from another Mother! and he reluctantly agreed to the temporary arrangement, but I knew this couldn't go on, my heart was breaking, but I was at a loss what to do, the three times a week turned into twice a week and then once a week, I was being incredibly selfish.

I would catch Ben looking for me in the Canteen, he seemed very sad but not as sad as me,

Many times he knocked the door, but I slept in Bobby's dorm, on the floor next to his bed, he was really concerned and would reach down and hold my hand.

Then one evening  there was a knock on my door, I opened it expecting to see Ben, but no, it was Sammy, she smiled at me,

'May I come in?' I moved aside, She strode in, the waft of expensive perfume filled the room,

'I have come to talk about Ben', I was very suddenly awake,

'Has something happened to him.?' I asked anxiously,

'Sit down,' she said and I obeyed,' I know what's going on with you and Ben,' she said looking at me quite earnestly, I was startled,

'There is nothing going on between Ben and me how could you think such a thing?

' 'I don't mean sexually you arse,' she said to me, slightly angrier,

'What then?' I asked her,

'You are in love with Ben, and he is not aware of it so he thinks you don't care for him anymore, and he is depressed as hell, he's not eating properly, he hardly leaves his dorm, we are all very worried about him and it's all your fault and you're being very selfish!'

I just looked at her and burst into tears, because she was right, I had no idea how my absence would affect Ben.

Suddenly Ben strode in, he had seen Sammy come to my room and followed her,

'What have you done to him!' he cried out, he seemed very upset with her, and came to me and held me.

'I haven't done anything to him, except tell him the truth' she shouted,

'Don't you realise he is in love with you!'

'Why do you think he is avoiding you, sometimes Ben you act like an idiot!'

I just couldn't take anymore,

'Get out,!' I cried pushing them both to the door, Ben looked visibly shaken,

'Rory.?' he pleaded, I shut the door and locked it. collapsed on my bed, and cried my eyes out,

I had ruined everything because of my love for Ben, ten minutes later there was a soft knocking on my door, I dried my eyes and opened it slightly, a very worried Ben stood there.

'May I come in Rory?' I opened the door, ashamed at my appearance, I just wore my boxers, Ben picked me up and carried me to the bed.

He kissed me very tenderly, 'Why didn't you tell me?' Did I have to find out from Sammy.?'

I turned on him. 'Ben, are you that stupid that you can't see I am madly in love with you? and you don't help by kissing me all the time or being nice to me like now.!'

Ben looked really hurt, 'If I give up Sammy would that make you happy?' I just looked at him, 'But you love her Ben, why would you do that?'

Ben smiled. 'I do love her but she is just a girl, your far more important, I could never love her as much as I love you.' and he kissed me.

I pushed him away, 'Ben stop fucking kissing me, don't you understand it makes me worse, I want you to make love to me, but your straight, this could never work, can't you see that.?'

Please leave me alone!', I urged him to leave, he was devastated, pleading with me even as I closed the door.

Then fate intervened, about an hour later, there was an urgent knock on my door, 'Go away,' i shouted, and a voice I recognized instantly said, 'Lord Rory!' it was Hamish, my fathers Factotum, I wiped my face and opened the door,

My brother Richard, the nearest of my brothers in age to me, although ten years older, had fallen off his horse, and was in a coma in Edinburgh Royal Infirmary, I left everything, my wallet, my laptop I just grabbed some clothes in a bag and left.

Hamish drove me, in my fathers Bently to be with my parents and siblings, at my brother's bedside.

We were there for four days, and my brother came out of his coma but was still serious, but my parents told me to go back to University and they would keep me informed, I returned to a firestorm.