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you no when u have been feeling shit and depressed and like ur life has no meaning and theres no point n getten outta bed everyday. do you stay like that forever or does it finally pass and u become happy eventully?

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fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

Jay Please contact those who love you. Love David

1antoniomac
1antoniomac
11 years ago

Plz be safe

11 years ago

come home

fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

Hi Mate (and valued friend) I am so glad you are seeing your doctor. A word of advice from someone who has been there, done that tell him everything that is a problem for you. You dont have to broadcast all that is worrying you on the internet but but if you see that it is appropriate and helpfull share stuff with the community that loves you. You have my love and concern David. Please please let me know how you are getting on.

11 years ago

Surferboi ... hope you're okay ... haven't seen you post here for a few days. As you can see from the posts below, a lot of guys here have gone through the same experience as you, and have managed to get out of it okay. We're all here for you .. so don't think you're alone.

senip
senip
11 years ago

Hey dude, there are loads of us on here that have gone through some sort of crap in our lives. Just keep telling yourself , tomorrow will be a whole new day . Things do get better , you just got to ride out the storm . We all need some help somewhere on the way. Take care buddy.

fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

BTW If you can help someone, witjyour life experiences along with your love then your life is doubly valued and you may help to save a life. Love again David

fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

Hi Mate. Just checking if things are ok. Please focus on the positives eliminate the negatives, latch on to the affirmatives, dont mess with Mr in between. Its an old song ut its are good rule for life.Tthere are many people that love you. Please dont just curl into a ball (been there done that). Find people who you can help snd sit beside. This was my way out, along with appropriate treatment. Remember as the Bible says' Love one another as I have loved you. He who loves is born of God and knows God because what God is love is." Whether you are person of faith or not, this is probably one of the most wonderful things ever written. Heaps of love David

fungus320
fungus320
11 years ago

Hi Mate. Just checking if things are ok. Please focus on the positives eliminate the negatives, latch on to the affirmatives, dont mess with Mr in between. Its an old song ut its are good rule for life.Tthere are many people that love you. Please dont just curl into a ball (been there done that). Find people who you can help snd sit beside. This was my way out, along with appropriate treatment. Remember as the Bible says' Love one another as I have loved you. He who loves is born of God and knows God because what God is love is." Whether you are person of faith or not, this is probably one of the most wonderful things ever written. Heaps of love David

mattmcc
mattmcc
11 years ago

from someone who has been there a couple of years ago, gun in hand, it does get better. Talk to someone, You are not the problem. Never be afraid to be yourself.

maxwomack
maxwomack
11 years ago

I am glad to hear that you plan to visit your doctor. Please be honest with him and follow his advice. you and every person is wortwhile. If someone you love and value is not comfortable with your sexual orientation, you must realize that hey are the person with a problem. Your sexual orientation does not make you a bad person and is not something that you can change. With time, hopefully, they will come to realize that your orientation is a small part of your worth to us all. Please get out and see some people. Smile at people and I think most will smile back. If it makes you more comfortable, take down your avatar.

skoobysnaxx
skoobysnaxx
11 years ago

Hi Surferboi......

I have been in a dark hole like you are in now - several times in my life. Probably different circumstances, but I'm pretty sure the dark hole was just as dark. As dark as things seem right now, IT DOES GET BETTER. You need to get help and be in face-to-face contact with someone who will listen to what concerns you and what is making you feel so helpless and worthless. Face-to-face, in-person contact, is very important and you are wise to seek the advice of a physician on going on an anti-depressant (I have and it helped me get through the darkest part and gave me a chance to sort things out a bit). Please know that no matter how much you try to convince yourself of the opposite, your life IS WORTHWHILE and you must find the strength to fight whatever forces in your life are making you feel that you are worthless. It is easy to give up - I almost did on more than one occasion - but you are worth more than that! You will be in my thoughts. Please let us know how the visit with the doctor went!

nate88
nate88
11 years ago

That is your decision. If you want to feel bad and depressed - seek help. If you want it to pass - get out of bed and do something with your life. Be around people. I pray you will find the answer you seek.

11 years ago

[ i dont wanna go to a councilor but im gona go to da doc tomo and ask him for someting. i reli dont tink i can take 1 more day like this ]

I was on an antidepressant for two years, and it helped to pull me out of a dark place I'd fallen into.
Without that drug, I don't know where I'd be right now. Surferboi .. be honest with your doctor and
tell him how bad it is. Ask him if he thinks an antidepressant will help. I was reluctant to try a drug
as I'd heard antidepressants had strong side-effects, but it turns out the newer ones have few side-
effects (not serious ones.) and can really help.

[ i really do feel im in such a deep hole rite now that i wont ever be able to get myself out of. ]

Trust me .. from someone who has been there ... YES. YOU. WILL. You will get past this.

11 years ago

Surferboi ... you need to start talking to someone one-on-one. From a person who has probably been in a similar situation to yours, I can tell you that (A) life DOES get better and (B) suicide is NOT the answer to your problems. Actually, suicide just hurts all those around you, friends and family, who care about you. I lost several friends to suicide, and can speak of the misery their deaths created for all of us they left behind. Don't even think about it !!! Please. Trust me.

Find a counsellor, shrink, or even a good friend to vent your feelings to. Oh .. and get out of the house/apartment more often. Sitting at the PC only adds to the feelings of being lonely and isolation.
Go to a local pool, community center .. meet a few new friends.

All the best.

11 years ago

tanks people for writen back to me, im sory to moan like a girl but i really do feel im in such a deep hole rite now that i wont ever be able to get myself out of. and it fucking sucks. i dont wanna go to a councilor but im gona go to da doc tomo and ask him for someting. i reli dont tink i can take 1 more day like this x

11 years ago

tanks people for writen back to me, im sory to moan like a girl but i really do feel im in such a deep hole rite now that i wont ever be able to get myself out of. and it fucking sucks. i dont wanna go to a councilor but im gona go to da doc tomo and ask him for someting. i reli dont tink i can take 1 more day like this x

11 years ago

just decide to take control of your life. alone in front of a mirror, you know what to do. god will listen to you. god has a connection to you, clear your mind and listen. talk out loud to him and man up. just attack your fears and decide to be ok. then set up a course to help yourself. get over your funk. get to work.

ilbobesso
ilbobesso
11 years ago

Just seen your most recent post. Pleae, please don't think like that. That's not the answer you're looking for.

ilbobesso
ilbobesso
11 years ago

Hi Surferboi, you're on my friends list although I don't think we've really messaged yet. I'm sorry you're feeling so low and I do know how you feel, believe me I've been there a few times myself. When that dark cloud descends it seems like there's no way it's ever going to lift and go away. But it can and it will, it takes time but things do get better. I know that might sound like it's easy for me to say right now but I know it from experience and because of the problems I've had with depression I took counselling training. So, the first thing I would say is this: just look at the messages you've had in just the last few hours. They are all offering you help and support, and I'm guessing this is from guys you haven't actually met yet. So you clearly are NOT "just 1 less gay on the face of the earth that no one could care about". You are valued and appreciated. And, no, you're definitely not a drama queen. You're someone who needs a bit of help right now and you've been strong enough to ask for it. That's a good, positive start. I'd like to talk with you more, and give you what support I can. Please message me back on my wall and if you get to feel you can trust me enough, maybe we can eventually talk more confidentially through email. Your call of course, but I'll be thinking about you whatever you decide, and hoping you come through this.

11 years ago

i wonder is death as sweet as i think