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JohnnyBoy20012 Blog Last Activity 11 years ago 853 views 16 comments
Well to let everyone know that I am still in the closet but my question deals with that a bit. I been living a lie with my true friends and my family for so long now and never yet told anyone who really I am. My major problem is my best friend who is homophobic and is scared to lose him if I do come out. However can homophobic people be living a lie too. The reason is that I sometimes think my best friend is really gay too but just doesn't want to admit it. I think this may be the case because some of the things he does to me when we are along are things that I think a homophobic person never do. Most of the things he does to me is that he loves hugs and cuddles but besides that he also fondles my balls and rubs my nipples and is constantly rubbing me and touching me. I don't mind that he does that to me since I still single and that it feels good to. I also return the favour and do it back to him and doesn't say anything about it. I for one think that he might be gay but there are times that I have popped the question to him and admitting that I am gay but then he reacts that I am leaving and don't want to be friends anymore. I then tell him that I am joking and then he stays and everything goes back to normal.

The question I want to ask does do homophobic person touch other guys in gay ways like fondling there balls. I think he might be gay but who knows. I want to hear what you people think.

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JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
11 years ago

Thanks guys for all your support. Hugs to all

senip
senip
11 years ago

Hey well done johnnyboy, know how it feels , its such a great weight off. sounds like he is a true friend to you as well

1antoniomac
1antoniomac
11 years ago

good job man

11 years ago

[[[[ I just want to let you know that officially came out with my best friend today ]]]]
Congrats !!!! A difficult thing to do, but glad you made the move.

11 years ago

Johnny...as I said on your wall...you being authentic with your friend also allowed him to be authentic with you. When we are who we are, others find the way to be their true selves as well. Congratulations on this step. Hugz to you....Thomas

JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
11 years ago

I just want to let you know that officially came out with my best friend today. I told him straight up that who I am. I told him that nothing will change with are friendship and I told him that he doesn't have to worry one bit. He wanted to leave at first but he ended up staying since I told him if he would want to risk losing me since I found out that I am one of the only person that he can go to for help. I found out that he comes from a broken home with a lot of fighting and stuff which after so many years he admit to me. At least I am one foot out the door now. I am going to wait to tell my parents there going on a trip next week so I am going to wait till they get back to tell them since I don't want them to think about this when they should be having fun.

JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
11 years ago

BackStreetBoy I have told him that I am gay like it states in my blog but he still gets upsets and doesn't want to be friends. So I always tell him it a joke so he stays friends with me.

BackStreetBoy
BackStreetBoy
11 years ago

keep me thinking....thinking.....and thinking....have u confessed?

11 years ago

It sounds to me like he is gay as well, especially if he is touching your balls and has no problem with you touching his.

senip
senip
11 years ago

I recently told my best friend that i was gay, didn't know how he would react , but as we confide in each other a lot i felt that i could tell him. He was absolutely fine with it and i can talk with him openly about how i feel about other guys. It hasn't changed our friendship one bit , so i know i have a true friend in him. Hope your friend is also a true friend and can accept you for who you really want to be. Take care mate, hope all goes well .

JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
11 years ago

canadaman that is what think he is but he doesn't want to openly admin that but who knows only time will tell. I going to take Thomas advice and ask him if he likes it. However at the same time he always mad if I openly tell him who I really I am.

11 years ago

[[[ Most of the things he does to me is that he loves hugs and cuddles but besides that he also fondles my balls and rubs my nipples and is constantly rubbing me and touching me. ]]]]
My "Gaydar" alarm just went off, loudly, when I read that.

JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
11 years ago

Thanks for your reply. Thomas I will ask him next time should see him laster the week

11 years ago

Johnny...quite the most homophobic are that way because they don't want to deal with their true nature...that is that they are gay. Str8 boys don't generally fondle their friends balls and play with their nipples....That being said, I am a true believer that we need to be true to ourselves. While he is your best friend..it is a friendship not being built on truth. It will eat away at you and the friendship. Maybe the next time he is fondling your balls, you should ask him if he is enjoying himself, cuz you are enjoying what he is doing...

Just a thought. I know it is hard to come out...but in the end it will be better.. Thomas

1antoniomac
1antoniomac
11 years ago

i kinda got the same problem i cuddle up to him every time i get i dont even think he notice

onlyinvegas
onlyinvegas
11 years ago

most of the time there action are to cover how they feel. hat is important is your besr friend has to deal with who you are.... if he cant then it well only break down...you cannot continue to lie to your self and not be happy... trust me you talking to a guy that was so far in the closet it took for ever for me to find the door to happiness.