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700 Days
For me, when some marker is achieved, it seems I always reflect on the journey. And having arrived at 700 days here on GBT, it seemed appropriate to reflect on that time.
Like many, I came here to find porn. Which I did find in abundance. And, eventually felt that I should contribute to the site. The work Nick does is admirable for a free site, but it is dependent upon its members and users to have a credible library of videos and pictures that appeal to people and keep them here. So nearly 2,500 uploaded videos later, I hope I have added to the diversity of things to entertain people. However, that being said, I find I spend much time to find videos, download them, edit and then upload them. And, like many I know the frustration of not always seeing things posted. It goes with the territory and is just the way it is, although it seems to have gotten worse over the last few weeks. And I think I may take a break from the video upload part of my membership for a while.
After some time, I realized that there was an entire community of people that were socially engaged with each other. Some purely about sex, and others about sharing their lives and experiences with people. Actually becoming friends and parts of each other lives. And supporting each other in times of stress and need.
That part of GBT has been a wonderful place to be. I have encountered so many kind and wonderful people. Some of who came into my life, and then left. Some because their lives changed and others because they had played their games and had their fun and moved on. There are also those that have become part of the fabric of my day, I will not list them, for fear of missing someone and I hope that you know who you are, but many are now part of my life away from GBT.
Like all communities, there is a cycle of the friendships, they ebb and flow over time. Some, once close are now just an acquaintance, not always for reasons clear to me. But such is life both here and in the real world.
And that cycle of ebbing seems strong lately, and it causes me to wonder, is this where my time should go each day. For as we all know, it take time to try to touch those we care about. I do not regret any of the time in the last 700 days, but am not clear if there is another 700 for me in the future. I think it is a day at a time proposition for now. Clarity in life is not something you create, it comes to you on its own schedule and in its own way.
No need for anyone to comment. Not looking for pleas to stay, or kind words, or a push to go. Just wanted to share how I felt. So many have made me feel so good to be here. And to those that chose to make it painful, I hope you enjoyed it as well.
Like many, I came here to find porn. Which I did find in abundance. And, eventually felt that I should contribute to the site. The work Nick does is admirable for a free site, but it is dependent upon its members and users to have a credible library of videos and pictures that appeal to people and keep them here. So nearly 2,500 uploaded videos later, I hope I have added to the diversity of things to entertain people. However, that being said, I find I spend much time to find videos, download them, edit and then upload them. And, like many I know the frustration of not always seeing things posted. It goes with the territory and is just the way it is, although it seems to have gotten worse over the last few weeks. And I think I may take a break from the video upload part of my membership for a while.
After some time, I realized that there was an entire community of people that were socially engaged with each other. Some purely about sex, and others about sharing their lives and experiences with people. Actually becoming friends and parts of each other lives. And supporting each other in times of stress and need.
That part of GBT has been a wonderful place to be. I have encountered so many kind and wonderful people. Some of who came into my life, and then left. Some because their lives changed and others because they had played their games and had their fun and moved on. There are also those that have become part of the fabric of my day, I will not list them, for fear of missing someone and I hope that you know who you are, but many are now part of my life away from GBT.
Like all communities, there is a cycle of the friendships, they ebb and flow over time. Some, once close are now just an acquaintance, not always for reasons clear to me. But such is life both here and in the real world.
And that cycle of ebbing seems strong lately, and it causes me to wonder, is this where my time should go each day. For as we all know, it take time to try to touch those we care about. I do not regret any of the time in the last 700 days, but am not clear if there is another 700 for me in the future. I think it is a day at a time proposition for now. Clarity in life is not something you create, it comes to you on its own schedule and in its own way.
No need for anyone to comment. Not looking for pleas to stay, or kind words, or a push to go. Just wanted to share how I felt. So many have made me feel so good to be here. And to those that chose to make it painful, I hope you enjoyed it as well.
You have a wealth of experience and knowledge which you share with others on here and you are never patronising as most of the guys you chat with are younger ( I assume) and do not always listen to their elders....Well my parents are a good example of that...
All I would say Thomas is just be you and do whatever fits in with your lfe as we all have lives outside of GBT but it is reassuring to know that we can come here when we need to for advice or reassurance... or just a bit of sexual inuendo...
I will disagree with the poster that says this is just a porn site. It may be that for you. But it is also a community of caring people that share their lives, their issues, their pain and their experience. And that is that part of here that is most rewarding. So, in brief, I am staying and will manage my time to be close to those I care about, care about me or are just looking for a friendly hear to listen.
Thanks to you all for letting me work through my issues with all of you in a public place.
Thomas
A man filled with honesty, love, friendship, comprehension, listening, sens of humor. A man who is caring for everybody here on GBT.. A man who take the time, each morning, day after day, send a message to I don't know how many friends for telling them to have a good day. A man always sending his love and his smile even when he have bad day..Yes , i know you have... Day after day Thomas you are here with us . .700 days of smiles and FRIENDSHIP. My sweet friend, I don't know what you will do, but i want you to know that for me you are an irreplaceable friend, a man that i love, a Brother if i can say. Thomas , You have enriched my life and not only mine.. Like i said before, i won't try to make you change your idea, you are the only one who know what you have to do and for YOU this time..Whatever what will be your decision my friend, you will always be in my heart..love you.. Big Hugzz n Kisss... Your friend forever... Alexis Samuel xxx