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<p>I wasn't sure what to title this post. I wanted to ask if any of you played along in high school so no one would find out about you being gay? I mean dating girls and even having sex a few times as crazy as that sounds. I knew people would talk eventualy if I didn't go out and if I did go out and nothing happened that would get talked about too. Does that mean you would be bisexual? Or that I am bisexual because I actually had sex sometimes with girls? You can find out all kinds of opinions and articles about this online by the way, some say yes some say no and some seem to be neutral. I didn't feel repulsed by girls but I didn't feel the atraction like I experience when with a guy. Once I was out of school I never dated girls again though I have friends that are female I do things with, non sexual things I mean.</p>
<p>I remember thinking I was different when I was pretty young but wasn't sure what it was exactly. I found myself more intrested in the young guys in a movie than the young guys. Later when i found out what "gay" was I thought to myself "Oh shit! That's what I am" and I remember being scared for a lot of different reasons. I also became friends with guys I secertly felt aattracted to and acted normal when we did stuff together like hunting, fishing or the things you do with friends in a small town.</p>
<p>Looking back now it all seems kind of crazy but at the time I was just a scared gay kid in school. One of my biggest fears and somethinng i had dreams about was getting an erection in gym when we all showered together. That never happened though there were some close calls.But I was terrified it would happen. Can anyone else relate to this? I know some of you my age or even older could be openly gay in school and it wasn't a big deal depending on where you live. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else and there must be did what I did in school so no one would know your secret? I also wanted to say how much I regret living the lie that I did. If I couuld do it over I would have been open about who I really was. And i would have told people I cared about but never had the chance to say it, or rather didn't have the courage to do so. No idea where some of those guys are now.  Guess I'm just rambling about my thought's I find myself having and figured I could say them here. I'm sure others have told their stories and they are somewhere way back in the blog pages. So mine is now added. Hope it made some sense considering I'm writing this so late at night. Probably look at this tomorrow and wonder what the hell I was thinking! So respond, don't respond just throwing my thoughts out there. Later folks! Oh yeah, call your mother if you still have that luxury and wish her a Happy Mothers Day. You won't always have that option.</p>
<p>I remember thinking I was different when I was pretty young but wasn't sure what it was exactly. I found myself more intrested in the young guys in a movie than the young guys. Later when i found out what "gay" was I thought to myself "Oh shit! That's what I am" and I remember being scared for a lot of different reasons. I also became friends with guys I secertly felt aattracted to and acted normal when we did stuff together like hunting, fishing or the things you do with friends in a small town.</p>
<p>Looking back now it all seems kind of crazy but at the time I was just a scared gay kid in school. One of my biggest fears and somethinng i had dreams about was getting an erection in gym when we all showered together. That never happened though there were some close calls.But I was terrified it would happen. Can anyone else relate to this? I know some of you my age or even older could be openly gay in school and it wasn't a big deal depending on where you live. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else and there must be did what I did in school so no one would know your secret? I also wanted to say how much I regret living the lie that I did. If I couuld do it over I would have been open about who I really was. And i would have told people I cared about but never had the chance to say it, or rather didn't have the courage to do so. No idea where some of those guys are now.  Guess I'm just rambling about my thought's I find myself having and figured I could say them here. I'm sure others have told their stories and they are somewhere way back in the blog pages. So mine is now added. Hope it made some sense considering I'm writing this so late at night. Probably look at this tomorrow and wonder what the hell I was thinking! So respond, don't respond just throwing my thoughts out there. Later folks! Oh yeah, call your mother if you still have that luxury and wish her a Happy Mothers Day. You won't always have that option.</p>
I think the fear of getting hard in the school showers is what prevented it from happening.
I bet more than 75% of us here have played the game.