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Drop My Pretenses

EternalPhoenix Blog Last Activity 10 years ago 584 views 16 comments
<p>Sometimes I wonder how its even possible to feel so alone in a world of millions. Right now I feel like I could cry forever. What do I even have to offer? Just some stupid dreams that will never become reality. I'm hoping that venting will at least slow the tears. Then just maybe they'll stop. Iv'e never felt so vulnerable and weak in my life. But today I just don't possess the energy to flash a fake smile, laugh at the insulting jokes, or massage your ego. I know that I shouldn't rely on others to make me happy, one day all I want is someone to make me laugh, to hold me when life breaks me down and tell me it will all be ok. Someone who sees past all the flaws and sees me for me.

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EternalPhoenix
10 years ago

Thanks guys, feeling a lot better!

10 years ago

Thanks Zander - eternalphoenix thought so too

mophead2009
10 years ago

hi just passing hey tc my friend

ZanyZander
10 years ago

That was funny Nickblack.

10 years ago

@EternalPhoenix thanks for the pm you sent the other day. You are always welcome to send a message. Together, we will all get you through this ;)

10 years ago

yes absolutely we'd love t know more about you.

BATTLEFIELD3
10 years ago

Glad you're going to fill out a GBT profile. It really helps to have a "face" to relate to.

EternalPhoenix
10 years ago

Thank you everyone, I will try any advice that I can get. As soon as I get a break from work, I will try and fill my profile.

austinpscottt
10 years ago

offering a hand of friendship, from afar

10 years ago

I've just dropped by for an update... I hope you are better today, EternalPhoenix. Please don't feel vunerable.. we are here to help you. I only hope you log in today and see how people really do care about you. Good luck ;)

talltony
10 years ago

Take care my friend ,we have all been there ,but look at the great guys on this site who you can talk to ,like you i am on my own with few friends so when i am down i look at the great looking guys we have on this site ,send the odd message to them ,ask some to be my friend on this site , hope this will help you a little love ,Tony

10 years ago

I know how you feel, many of us here do. We all have ups and downs and sometimes we get stuck in a rut. I have been in deep depression for almost 20 months due to health and financial problems, and yes crying is a great relief valve..let it go! It isn't easy but I find great comfort since I joined HERE, talking to the many who have befriended me and supported me. I have 5 people (they know who they are) who I have emails for and 3 of them have opened up to me and told me a lot about their personal lives and I have done the same. It was so enlightening to hear their stories, and they were the same as me, they have problems in their life, but have picked them selves up and moved on to a better place in their lives. It was so inspiring to me and I hope to them also. These guys are awesome compassionate people on this board, as the majority are, and have gotten me through the worst chapter in my life. Please talk to someone, and one secret I find..sitting at home letting the depression dwell, is the worst thing you can do. Get out, go to movies, or sports events, be with your friends, join LGBT support group, and meet guys your own age and befriend them, you may find that person you seek ..you are not alone, MANY have similar issues. The secret is conquer them or they will conquer you. BE POSITIVE MY FRIEND!Private me any time if you'd like to talk. hugz paparon xoxo

10 years ago

If you tell everyone on GBT a bit more about yourself in your profile and choose some favourite videos and pics you may find it easier to join in with life here and I am sure there are some others who get good advice and support from other members ..for example when you accepted my friend request a few days ago you could have put a welcome message on my wall as so many do, little gestures like that can make a big difference in life.

10 years ago

u r never alone... lots of good people here 2 chat with... just reach out... never give up... dreams r never stupid.... if i could rite now i whld hug u tight and tell u everything will b ok... lots of luv

10 years ago

@Eternalphoenix kind of how I felt a while back. I sat here at my desk, logged onto here at GBT and started talking to my friends. Believe me... when you need them most, they are there for you.

10 years ago

Are you Viktor Yanukovych? the Ukrainian chap who has disappeared?