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I get sad around this time of the year because 6 years ago tomorrow my Mother died ... colon cancer that metastasized in her liver. I was holding her hand when she crossed the bridge. I was crap that first year - cried all the time. I hardly cry anymore, except around March 13. I wish she could come back and take over Marlene's job. Â I love you mom and I'm looking forward to being with you again.Â
Josh,
I cannot believe that your mom and my mom died of EXACTLY the same thing. Colon cancer. My mom had the surgery to remove the cancerous section of her colon and this allowed the very virulent cancer that she had to metastasize throughout her body. About two weeks after her surgery she was gone. At the time, and for months after, I wished that I had gone with her. No one has ever loved me as much as my mom and no one ever will. My mom passed away a couple of days before Thanksgiving. I do not give a damn about any of the holidays any more, partly because of this. My mom was only a month past her seventieth birthday. Last November marked 26 years since she passed away. I was 36 at the time, but there is NEVER a good time to lose one's mother. I am glad you have Shane in your life and your other real life BFFs. I have cried me an ocean since my mom's passing, let me tell you. You go ahead and cry all you want. I have a tear in my eye right this very minute as I share your sadness. No one lives forever, but you only get one mom and no one can ever replace them when they are gone. I had a very terrible dream about my mom for years after she passed. Basically, mom went away because the three of us kids broke her heart. We knew she was still alive but she had to leave the ones who hurt her the most. I do not have this dream any longer I am glad to say. But for a handful of years, it was more of a nightmare than a dream. Josh, I send you a great big sympathy hug and you can send me one back. I'm sorry we both lost our moms due to cancer. Hugsalwholelot to my best little adopted brother in the world Harry
again i am so sorry to hear and sure wish i was there to give u a great big hug and as others u have alot of support so if u ever need someone to chat with by all means chat me up okÂ
.....i wish you all the strenght there is....dear boy......lill kiss
I'm so sorry JB, you're a great guy... kisses and I love you
I know how you feel Joshie. My bf was diagnosed with cancer about 2yrs ago...............his dad was a transplant surgeon so he had medical connections. Even sent him to this cancer hospital in Houston,Tx. Seemed to be getting better, but then he called and said it had gone to his brain. And it was like 3 weeks later that his dad text me to say he had passed away. It was on a Friday, and I spent the whole weekend in my room crying. Since he lived in Tennessee, I couldn't afford to fly across the country to attend his funeral. I actually thought about suicide, but then I knew Dan wouldn't want me to end my life. So I go on with his memory and of good times together. Your mom will always be with you, specially in difficult times. She lives in your heart and mind forever!Â
I was 17 when my own mother died and it must have taken 6 years for me to come out of my shell. Fortunately I found a good friend social work school who finally managed to bring me out of the emotional funk I was in.
I would strongly suggest you find a therapist or counselor to talk things over with. In fact I'd recommend that to everyone who's going through emotional trauma.
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You were far too young to have lost your mother. Even after six years, please understand how sorry I am for your loss. Opa RD