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It was the second week in January 2015, Tam had returned to Japan and, although we Skype every night at 9 PM, I was missing him badly.

Having had Tam living in my dorm constantly for six months. and him leaving, had left an enormous hole in my life, and I was lonely.

We soon changed the time we would Skype each other, Japan was nine hours ahead of the UK, so that meant Tam was getting up at 6 am, so we changed it to 10 pm UK time, that meant Tam would be awakened by me at 7 am, just as he had done when he lived with me in my dorm room,

I remembered fondly dragging his sleepy head into the bathroom, placing his hands on my shoulders with him, eyes closed and all dreamy, I would kiss him when I had finished washing him, and he would smile, I would towel us dry, wash our teeth, I would brush his hair and we would dress and prepare breakfast.

We soon discovered that Tam had been so used to this regime, that he decided to leave his large Laptop open on his bedside table,

I would Skype him at 10 pm, and call his name softly, his eyes would open slowly and the first person he saw every morning was me smiling at him, he just loved it, we would chat for an hour or so, the mutual masturbation didn't last long,

We both realized we missed each other more than we missed the sex.

I would still say sexy things to him and he would still blush, and if I said something outrageous, he would hide his face in his hands as usual.

This was a time when James was still a few months away from our first meeting, so my comfort at that time was the nightly chats with Tam, and Ben, sensing I was lonely, would stay in my dorm a couple of times a week.

Other than that, the gang got up to the usual things, Snowboarding in the Cairngorms, attending festivals etc, but although I had the company of Danny and the rest, I felt a little empty and lost.

It was the beginning of February that changed everything, I was swotting up some lecture notes and there was a knock on my door, I checked the time, 8 pm.

I rose from the desk and opened the door and was surprised to see Tony standing there, do you remember Tony? The Vice president of the Film Club, and dorm buddy to Reggie, the heir to a Dukedom,

Tony was stunningly handsome, an ordinary boy from Morningside in Edinburgh, that everyone lusted after, including me, but he had eyes only for the nerdy, slightly built Reggie.

I said 'Hi,' to this beautiful blond boy and he seemed very cowed,

I glanced down and he was carrying a holdall and a computer bag,

'Could you do me a favour Rory?' i said 'of course Tony, what is it?' he bowed his head slightly, 'Can I stay with you for a couple of days?' he looked up and there were tears in his eyes,

I went immediately to him and clapsed him to my chest,

'What is it Tony, what's happened?' he dropped his holdall and placed his arm around me,

'I have fallen out with Reggie,'.

I just pulled away, invited him in and sat him down on my spare bed. I offered him a Scotch and he accepted.

I must say I was surprised, these two boys, both a year older than me, had been best friends and dorm buddies for over two years.

I handed him the glass of single malt and asked what had caused the rift, and when he told me everything, I was so angry, especially with Reggie.

Tony, like me, was one of the very few boys at Uni who was openly gay, but unlike me, no one had ever seen, or heard him, go out with anyone,

I had made it clear to him that I liked him, he was just my very type of boy, tall, slender, a mop of yellow-blond hair, shy with a very sweet nature and smile, and even is surname was cute, Yellowlees, Anthony Yellowlees.

But Tony had said that he was flattered but I was not his type, and I had accepted this rejection, because it soon became obvious that he was madly in love with the very straight Reggie, and I felt desperately sorry for him, not only bunking with Reggie in the same dorm but also being under him as Vice President of the Film Club.

This is what he told me.

Reggie knew that Tony was gay but he didn't mind, they were good friends and I admired Reggie for his open-mindedness, not realizing that Reggie hadn't the faintest idea that Tony loved him with a passion,

Things had come to a head when Reggie threw, a party in his dorm, for his birthday, a party I attended,

it all went swimmingly, what I didn't know was that after everyone had left, Tony and Reggie were dancing together, messing about and Tony, slightly drunk, had declared his love by kissing Reggie full on the mouth, and as Reggie is slightly built, compared to the six foot two inch Tony, he couldn't break away, when he did, he slapped Tony and asked for an explanation,

Tony declared his undying love to an open-mouthed, shocked Reggie, and had been ordered to leave the dorm room there and then,

Tony had gone to Tommy's dorm and slept on the floor that night, he woke up went to his shared dorm with Reggie, and found all his belongings in boxes outside, he had gone to see the Bursar and there were no places available so he had knocked on my door,

But it was what he said next that sent me into a fury, Reggie had placed a short note in one of the boxes stating that he was now sacked as Vice President, and he never wanted to see him again.

I was sitting beside Tony when he finished explaining, he must have seen the look on my face he placed his hand on my arm.

'Please Rory, don't do anything!'

He knew that I was well known for getting 'stuck in' if I found out an injustice had taken place.

Tony looked so forlorn, deflated, I just hugged him and his tears fell.

I felt so sorry for this very sweet natured boy, no one had a bad word to say of him, he smiled easily, was a good and diligent student, and now look at him. I asked him had he eaten, he shook his head,

'Do you like Venison?' he nodded,

'But I don't want to go to the canteen tonight Rory, I'm sure everybody must know!'

I stood up, opened the desk drawer and took out the electric hot plate I had bought with Tam, plugged it in and turned it on, I went to the fridge and dug out two thick juicy Venison steaks, showed them to Tony and said,

' Who's talking about the Canteen?' and for the first time in over an hour he smiled,

'Do you like sticky rice?' he nodded,

'Great you top up your whiskey and I will make dinner OK?' he nodded again and stood up, as he passed me he stopped and hugged me and said very quietly,

'Thank you'. I turned around.

'Tony, you don't have to thank me, look at the job you did filming last Christmas at my house, I never properly thanked you for that, this is the least I can do, and you can stay as long as you like, and we can eat breakfast lunch and dinner here so don't worry, just relax.' and he did,

I chatted to him whilst cooking dinner, asking him which vegetables he liked then preparing them, and adding them to the steaming saucepan,

I plated up the dinner, added a jar of redcurrant jelly on to the table, and we had a lovely meal together, it brought back memories of Tam, and I was very happy, but as I glanced over at this lovely boy I wondered what I could do to help him,

I had to do something, and there was one thing I would not do, and that was to take advantage of the circumstances and bed him.

We switched drinks to a Vintage 1993 Burgundy, and we talked, I learned more about him in those few hours than I ever did before,

He seemed very kind and gentle, quietly spoken but desperately sad, it was my laptop chirping that broke the conversation, I looked at the clock, five past ten,

'Tam', I rose quickly and went to my desk, there a tousle-haired Tam was looking at me,

'Did you forget?' he asked forlornly,

I apologized and explained that something urgent had come up,

'We have a visitor Tam,' i beckoned Tony to come to the desk, he did,

'Look, Tam, Tony's here!' Tam smiled at Tony and said Hi, Tony repeated the greeting,

I whispered to Tony that I would explain later, and suggested he made his bed, which he did after saying goodbye to Tam.

I spent an hour chatting to Tam I didn't tease him with Tony in the room, he honestly believed that no-one at Uni knew we were a couple except Ben, whereas every man and his dog knew!

We ended the Skype and I promised I would wake him up tomorrow morning, which, of course, would be at 10 pm my time.

Tony seemed very moved by Tam and my situation,

'I didn't realize you were that close' is all he said, and I understood that unless you were in our inner circle of friends, you wouldn't know.

I explained to him, without going into graphic detail, that, yes, Tam and I loved each other, and this nightly exercise was our way of keeping in touch, but he would be spending a couple of months at my house at summer semester, and that gave me an idea, it was Thursday evening, Tony was doing Media and the Arts, as was Reggie, I suggested something, 

Tony, do you feel like taking tomorrow off?' He nodded,

'What about the weekend, any plans?' Tony shook his head,

'Then how about a return trip to my Estate, I can show you around properly and we can go riding, just have a fun long weekend, what do you think?' Tony looked at me,

'What will your parents say?' I just smiled at him,

'When my parents find out you where one of the boys who made our family documentary, they will probably adopt you!' He laughed,

'Is it a date,?' I asked him, he nodded,

'Right why don't you get a shower while I clear up, then I will have one and we can get some shuteye OK?' Tony, nodded and gathered his holdall, I told him where the towels where and he went to shower,

I phoned Ben and told him what happened to Tony, he was as angry as myself, I asked him to leave it for now, but to make enquirers all over the weekend, if anyone had seen Tony, and to make sure that Reggie got to hear of it, and Ben was to say he was worried as Tony had disappeared

. I wanted Reggie to sweat, I just finished talking when Tony walked back into the dorm wearing his pyjamas, I suggested h to go to bed as we were leaving at the crack of Dawn, he hugged me and I walked to the bathroom.

I showered and when I returned, this beautiful troubled boy was fast asleep.

I got into bed and Text my father to tell him I was coming home for a long weekend and was bringing a friend,

I knew he would be sleeping as it was nearly midnight, but he would get it in the morning, I lay down and was soon asleep.