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Why Do I Torture Myself?
Why do I keep letting my self feel guilty about being Gay? I have tried praying it out, ignoring it, and even whipping my self when the urges came, but the attraction to other guys is still there, and just when I feel like a have finally broken away from that guilty feeling I get hit with another wave of guilt. Well this time I'm not going to let it. I'm going to fight it and stop letting my self be miserable. I'm happier when I'm myself. So I'm going to start being myself, if I loose more friends and family in the processes, then that is the price I will have to pay.
we all have to do what we need to do to get by in this life. it's the only one we have. we get told what to do and what to think by everyone along the way. well, it' your life bud. you have one chance at it. make it count
Everyone is gay or bi...the straights just tend to ignore it.
Everyone's bi-sexual whether they realize it or not. If you have sex with anyone do you use protection? As in a condom responsibly? Do you both get blood tests done ever so often for H.I.V./A.I.D.S. and other s.t.d.s? If you also don't smoke drink or do drugs then you should be on much better ground than other people. Remember to brush your teeth at least twice a day (I do three times and really any time after I eat something) and use Listerine in the morning and right before you go to bed. Otherwise keep up with your sleep, stay hydrated with water, and exercise. Then family and friends should not be as worried as they should perhaps other people. Remember the so called Christians do not look after themselves and or others that well so you should be ahead of them in terms of having better judgement and behavior.
The reason you feel guilt is because that is what our society, civilization, and certain people have conditioned ourselves to think and feel. This is why it is important to think on your own and don't let other people control you...especially people who don't even know your or care about your well being. I can't honestly believe you or anyone would resort to whipping themselves for feeling gay or really anything. That is something you need to stop doing. No one who cares about your well being thinks you should torture yourself or anyone else for that matter. I remember masturbating and feeling guilty about it. Lol. I remember the "one last time" feeling as well! Ha, ha! You will realize over time that it is normal to want to ejaculate on average once a day. Non issue. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. They are just trying to wield power, control, and abuse over you. Whether THEY realize it or not. Though I think they usually do...