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i was young
born in 1963 in the BRD(western part of germany after world war 2)i had no idea that later in life i would turnout gay.
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A boy with a boy-oh no!Paragraph175 did put you straight into jail at that time!
so maybe that was one of the multiple reasons i did not identify myself as gay.
But-as you know-nothing in this world will stop instincts so strong-so gay!
When i was 5 years old i remember already being in love with my penis-i would put rubber bands all around and over it,that stiff little entity i had no idea of
but felt so hard and important to me.
As the years progressed i was in elementary school-i remember the situations in PE-physical education-even at that age...I would react to the shape of muscle of a peers arm-slim but refined and strong and innocent.
it became apparent to me that i really was turned on by guys in high school-the first time watching your classmates taking of their clothes before going into the shower room should not make you get a hard-on but that is exactly what it did to me-because...excuse me,i am getting tired,i may follow with the narrative in due time darlings!
well i am back...looking back at those feelings and things seems rather strange and far away i am thrilled in the same time to reconnect to those forgotten memories
so ,yes-in high school!i had PE with my classmates out on the field and when we returned to take a shower i was the last one to take it-even though i wished to mingle(to look and compare) but foremost -TO PEAK at the development of my classmates pubes and size of cock and balls.
God I wish to have had the confidence i have now..but i didn`t!
Hi new friend, it is amazing to read this as you have just accurately described a very private part of my youth! I guess we were all having the same thoughts and desires 'back in our day' as we became aware (and often in denial over) our sexuality! Not an easy process through the late 1970's and 80's!! I married, had 2 super kids but remained in denial until just 4 months ago when I spilt with my wife of 35 years. We remain 'friends' but I have now begun to live as an 'Out Gay' man! Life may be complicated atm but life is also good :)