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Sex doesn't make sense
So here's my theory - what you are like sexually is nothing like what you are like in the rest of your real life.Â
In my regular life -- I want to be respected. I am independent and I make my own choices and stand up for myself. Nobody pushes me around or calls me names or makes fun of me because I'm gay.
Daniel in my sex life -- I am a helpless boy toy for a strong man. He uses me any way he wants. He calls me his slutboy or his pussy boy or his girly princess. All I want is to make him happy and he can do anything he wants to me.
Is it weird that I think of myself so different in how I want to be seen in my regular life and how I think of myself sexually? I donno, maybe none of this even makes sense (I've had a few beers) but I wonder if any other guys relate to this?
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I agree that many guys are like that, including me...straight acting by day but gay porn at night, just like they say in this clip from "Bohemian Rhapsody" -
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I suspect that almost all guys think that way.....women too.....we have a second persona who is the sexual counter-part of our regular self-image. Maybe it is just a way to keep those two live separate. Â
That is correct when you pretend to have sex with Leo Kricov!
In real life I'm definitely not hyper masculine, but do come across as your average male and no one ever thinks I'm gay unless I tell them. Yet in bed I tend to get a bit wanton and sensual, the pitch of my voice goes up with talking dirty and I make pretty uninhibited sobs of pleasure noises, but not in any camp way. It kind of surprises men I'm with but tends to turn them right the fuck on.
You know you are correct.. The old saying is most big masculine guys really want to be sub- bottoms. To some extent that is true. But here is the glitch for me. I have always been a dom top . but the last 2 years I have myself becoming a bit more sensitive and a bit more submissive. I have tried bottoming 3 times in my life.. never had anyone who could get me to enjoy it.. yet I feel like I'm missing half of my sexuality . I would try it again but it just has to be someone who knows how to fuck so that I can enjoy it. I'm no porn star so I dont want to be fucked like one....lol
are you kidding? nothing about sex makes any sense. if you try to figure it out you will go crazy
being a very submissive bottom myself I let guy or guys do whatever they want to please themselves--their satisfaction is mine--I met a guy into bondage and pain one day when I was younger and he showed me another side of sex I never even thought of but he did say if did anything I didn't like he wouldnt do it--but in my mind I would think if I am a bottom and submissive how can I tell my master--or the guy I am with no--I never said no never will even though times I prob should have but if I saw the guy I was with satisfied--thats all that mattered--and the things a dominant guy can get you doing can be unreal but as I said his happiniess is mine
Don't worry. Your sexual desires, ambitions and self-awareness will all converge in a few, maybe several years from now. But right now, enjoy the ride