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Hey GBT folks, didn't know where else to ask since I'm new, but: what is "premium" and where could one even get it? There were some messages that I'd need premium for some functions, but I can't for the live of me find any options for that haha...Thanks!
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone
And I think it's gonna be long long time
I was a senior in high school when the New York Times first published ads for "all male adult films." I quickly memorized all of the names and addresses of the venues, But how would I get away from home long enough to watch a movie or two? Luckily I had just bought new glasses from my father's optician, whose office was on one of the lower floors of the Empire State Building, A visit there for final adjustment would give me plenty of free time to visit a movie. I took a train to Penn Station and subways to Times Square. My objective was the Avalalon, on 55th Street, west of Broadway. From the corner it was only lwo blocks to the theater. As I walked by, there were no p[ctures of a nude actor only the sign advertising 'all male films.'" As I walked by my eyes met those of the booth attendant, who smiled at me. Probably he had seen many other young men walk up and hesitate just like me,justsudden I felt regret that ever since middle schhool boys had suggested sex and even humped me, but I was alwaywho smilrds afraid that I would be hurt. Now I watched the sailor begin thrusting his ass in time with the rythm and the camera showed his face smiling with joy, This was not acting, he was really enjoying it. I realized then that I had been missing out on the best part of life, Mone of the cast acted distressed or uncomfortable. All seemed pperfectly happy. About this time the lights came back on and we waited while they changed reels,
A funny thing about that sailor. He was holding onto a bedrail when he started moving his butt. Then his sailor cap started to slide over his eyes and falling off completely as he moved his ass faster. But he never stopped or hesitated because the loving was so good. Why stop when you're having the best time of your life!
The follow on viewing then cme on, and it was a beauty, It was perhaps the best argument for gay rights that I[ve ever seen. Across the whole screen a line of nude young men appeared. ther penises joining them together. I learned afterwards to call this a "daisy chain." They must have rehearsed the moves quite a lot, because their motions were smooth and perfect, As they fucked, the music mad a dramatic "Boing, Boing" in time. Of course all of the young men smiled or laughed. It was a great finale! As I had to return back by now, I was left with the thought that I had gust watched something very good, even holy. I felt that every boy or young man should be able to choose his way to love and that choice should be protected by law.
About the artist: Joaquín Sorolla y Bastida (1863 – 1923) was a Spanish painter. Sorolla excelled in the painting of portraits, landscapes, and monumental works of social and historical themes. His most typical works are characterised by a dexterous representation of the people and landscape under the bright sunlight of Spain and sunlit water. This work dates from 1905.
Alejandra is not ashamed or hides her taste for gay porn: “In my house they know that I watch gay porn. My dad told me that if it was because I was a lesbian he would still love me. I told him: Yes, dad, thank you; but no: I like men so much that I like to see sex between them.” I wish we could all be proud of the porn we watch
Nearly 40 percent of women who watch porn featuring gay men are heterosexual.
Gay porn has its own aesthetic, according to Alejandra and Monse the men are more handsome, clean and empathetic than in traditional porn. That is the first hook, but what catches the girls is something that goes beyond physical attractiveness: “We create love stories behind what for many would be just something carnal,” explains Monse.
People Neville interviewed said, for example, that men in gay porn express more vulnerability and emotion than men in straight porn. Some male porn stars are leaning towards this audience of women, such as boy company CockyBoys. In general, some gay men are bothered by women fetishizing them in this way, which Neville calls "gay appropriation," while others are perplexed or indifferent.
A common trope of straight porn is to put a woman who fits an ideal beauty standard with a man who looks like an ogre, or perhaps a forest creature. (It's not for nothing that porn legend Ron Jeremy was nicknamed "The Hedgehog." In porn between men, more attention is paid to the male figure, and more parts of his figure, says Neustifter. "Certainly, I think that in porn between men there is a lot more attention paid to the camera going over the entire male body and somehow making love to the porn star."
"Jackie Me is a 23-year-old woman who just graduated from San Francisco State University. With strawberry blond hair and a stature near five feet, three inches, she occupies her life as a medical health counselor. Jackie rolls her eyes as she changes the subject away from her job. Jackie lives in the Villa Towers close to San Francisco State. But on her free time, she does other activities: partying, shopping, and watching movies. She unabashedly admits that she loves porn, particularly gay male porn. Always expecting the shock and disbelief from people, she pops up her Mac Book with a folder of porn. From one digital manila folder pops up attractive guys engaging in sexual activities with normal “straight-looking” guys. One video played a blonde jock flirting with the black coach. With a curious grin, Jackie remarks that she has collected 20 gigabytes of porn: 90 percent is gay while the other 10 percent is straight porn." “Jackie says - I like beautiful men, and with two beautiful men engaging in ‘fun’ activities, it’s even better.”
Girls prefer gays, and so do I. I was always attracted to boys so it was the first porn I saw since I was a curious teenager.
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I'm looking for the entire video with these three guys. I would be grateful for a link or even a hint: their stage names, especially the blond boy in the middle.
Thank you.
Whenever I think back to school, my #1 thought is that I wish I did more at the time with some of the hot boys at my school haha... - Made me curious though, what did you guys experience back in school, back when the hormones were raging and you were experimenting and figuring everything out? ;)
I'll start with the one story I can share about that. It was honestly a great experience and I don't regret a thing about it, except not going for more before or after that. I remember most of the important bits, I'll fill in the rest of the details to make it a decent read. Hope to hear some of your experiences!
Only ever had some fun at school once: after regular hours, there were some afternoon time slots to do your homework for the next day. Once you were done, we got to hang out on school grounds, mostly on the schoolyard but also in the gym or exploring the huge old school buildings. Anyways, a guy [imma call him J] from my class (we would have been grade 8 or 9, I think he was "mostly straight" but probably curious, kinda cute athletic guy, more of a jock type, about one year and then some older than me because he had to repeat a grade - that'd put me at around 14, maybe barely 15, and J at around 16ish) and I were chilling outside as we often did when we were done for the day and the weather allowed it. Back then I'd have said we were friends, not close but the kind of friend you would sit next to in classes and hang out with in your friend group at school.
We were walking through the largest of the old school buildings (our school had some old and some newer sections), maybe like 5 stories a basement, so not super high but fairly wide. Back then it seemed massive though, and after hours when almost nobody was around and no classes were held, you could get away with exploring areas you wouldn't normally be in, try and check some doors if they were left unlocked etc. Shit you do when you were bored, but kinda fun looking back.
Anyways - while walking around we got to talking, first about girls, and since I wasn't out back then I just went along with it and acted like I was interested. From that we talked about porn, like what websites we knew, what kind of porn we liked to watch (I probably lied about that tho lmao), and he got out his phone to show me some videos he had saved. By then we were in one of the basement classrooms used mainly for workshops and exams sometimes (since they were more soundproof and far from the main halls), which we often used to hang out if we wanted some privacy and no teachers to worry about. We sat down on a sofa in the corner (there were a few of them that got fixed and decorated as an art project I think), I was sitting next to him and there was a table at knee-height in front of us.
This was before we all had smartphones, so it was just like 4 or 5 videos he had saved, probably sent by someone else aswell. I was intrigued at that point, because at that age we were all kinda baseline-horny all the time (..or at least I was lol) and it didn't take much to put the hormones into overdrive, which porn and the situation definitely did. The videos themselves were rather unremarkable - I didn't pay the women much attention, but some of the guys had nice dicks -, but I definitely noticed J was transfixed by the screen and really keen to watch and show me the videos. That piqued my curiosity; I hadn't really thought about J sexually thaaat much, since he was more of a jock type, was a year older than me and gave 'straight energy' (which probably was kinda intimidating to me since I was still in the closet), but he was athletic and had a cute face with that late 2000s/early 2010s Bieber hairstyle. I'd definitely call him hot and would lie if I said I didn't like looking at him change in the locker room.
So I asked him to play the next video and asked about his preferences, what "we" (lol) would want to try with girls, what experiences he has had before (I found out he's had a girlfriend for a few months before and got to fool around, had oral a few times and some kinda awkward sex, before they broke up), basically whatever to keep him interested in the topic and see his reactions. The convo was honestly pretty interesting to young me and funny at times aswell, but I couldn't help but notice what looked like J kinda holding or slowly stroking his dick with the one hand he had in his pocket. He was wearing black shorts, kinda like basketball shorts, so it wasn't that difficult to see that he was getting more of a bulge, either from the video or the convo. If I wasn't hard before I definitely was at that point. I don't know how well I was hiding it (if at all), though I also didn't make much of an effort to do so. Maybe he noticed, though maybe it was just him being horny anyways, but at that point he asked me:
"Ever jerked off with another guy before?" Fuck. I liked where that was going, honestly I had hoped it would go there, but I really didn't want to somehow screw this up. I thought about what to say, I didn't want to seem to weirdly eager as well, but I ended up just being honest. "Nope, you?" - "Yeah sometimes...Wouldn't mind getting off rn to be honest (kinda laughing)". From what I could tell J's bulge had grown considerably by that point and he wasn't making much of an effort to hide him stroking it through his pocket. By that point I wasn't really overthinking it that much anymore, since it seemed evident he was gonna jerk off either way unless I somehow intervened (though he'd probably have gone on the toilet to go solo then lol), so I just made sure that from where we were sitting at there would be no bad surprises of someone seeing us before we could notice, and went "Sure, let's do it".
I didn't lie when I said I hadn't done that before, but maybe as a way of overcompensating, maybe because I was horny and eager to make sure that this was happening and he didn't change his mind, I went first with pulling my shorts down a bit, exposing my boxershorts with the head of my dick already sticking out on top, pressed against my stomach. I didn't really know what to do or if there was some "etiquette" (lol I don't know what exactly I expected), so I looked at what J was doing. He set down his phone on the table in front of us and then to my surprise he first pulled his head out of his t-shirt and put it behind his neck, keeping his arms in his sleeves. No idea if this was just habit for him or if he was showing off, but I definitely noticed his toned abs and chest. He then kinda nonchalantly pulled down his shorts and boxers at once, and when he did his dick got a bit stuck until it audibly slapped back onto his stomach. Even back then I'd say my dick wasn't small, probably a bit bigger than average and thick, but J was obviously just bigger than me, probably like 18 cm with a slight upwards curvature and very thick. I also noticed that he seemed super horny, since he was hard as a rock and veiny. Like me he was also uncut, though because of his boner his foreskin was mostly pulled back, exposing his rather big head. I thought it looked delicious, even though I didn't even really know what to expect were I to taste it. His pubes were trimmed, otherwise his body looked decently hairless, either naturally or clean shaven, except for his legs. I followed suit and took off my boxers (though I kept on my shirt for now), and because I thought it was funny and to keep the light mood going I also went for getting my dick stuck on the boxers, letting it slap back down. He gave a slight smirk and started stroking his dick and so did I.
I found it hard to concentrate on the video and kept shifting back and forth between looking at the screen and looking at J. The video was okay, whatever straight porn he got on his phone I guess, but J was way more interesting to me: he had leaned back and sunk back into the sofa, using one hand to stroke his cock while the other rested on his leg. I was jerking too, how could I not, and had to pace myself a bit to not embarrass myself - I guess the situation was a bit overwhelming to me haha. His was the first other dick I got to see live in action and I was in awe as I watched his foreskin move up and down the juicy head, his big and clean shaven balls bouncing up and down slightly with his rhythm. So in awe was I that by the time he suddenly stopped, due to the way we were sitting next to each other and my focus, I had failed to notice that he was no longer looking at his screen, but rather J had tilted his head slightly and looked directly at me with a somewhat curious look on his face. He had obviously noticed that I was checking him out. But to my surprise, he didn't seem to mind, in fact he looked a bit...amused? As if he wasn't even surprised in the slightest. Looking back at it, I think he probably knew what he was doing...he was older than me and not naive, the ease with which the conversation took this turn and the provocative way he took off his shirt? I'm sure he knew what he was packing too, and maybe he even suspected I was gay. Maybe I wasn't that subtle when checking him or other guys out in the locker sometimes...okay, I probably wasn't, who was at that age haha.
But without even saying much and still with this amused look on his face, he did a slight upwards nod towards his cock, which he was holding up with his thumb, and opened his leg a bit in my direction. At first I was a bit hesitant since he just noticed me staring, but he obviously didn't mind and it was quite clear what he hinted at. I figured this couldn't be too difficult, I knew what a dick felt like and what felt good, and I had obviously watched gay porn before and thought about what I would want to try one day. So I took the chance. I moved a bit closer on the couch so that our legs were touching and moved my hand over his abs. I noticed he got slight goosebumps, which I figured was probably good since it wasn't that cold. Then I went for it and grabbed his cock. I wasn't expecting how..warm it would feel, but that was the first thing I noticed. Then that he was rock hard, which I found impressive at his size. And speaking of the size, his cock felt massive in my hand, especially the thickness. All this took less than a second to process, and it also didn't take more than a second after I grabbed it to feel his cock twitch or pulsate with excitement. I slightly squeezed the base of J's cock and moved my hand upwards, only to see some drops of precum appear at his tip and starting to slowly drip downwards. I started gently stroking his dick, while collecting some of the precum with my thumb and moving it across the head of his cock. It was super slippery which I wasn't used to from myself. I almost jumped a bit when I suddenly felt his warm hand squeeze my dick in response. I was super surprised by that, but looking back I'm not even sure why. Everything before that put into context makes more sense when assuming there was more than just a little curiosity coming from his side aswell.
I wanted to make the most of it and impress him with things he maybe didn't know but I did, and since I had noticed him just using one hand to jerk off and having his other hand rest, I continued stroking his cock with my right hand with a slight twist, and used my left hand to first cup and play with his balls, then took two fingers a bit further down to gently put pressure on his taint as I stroked him. This was the first time I heard him moan, it actually sounded a bit surprised! To this day it has often surprised me how few guys know how good this feels, since you can actually get some action on the prostate this way without going anal. J certainly didn't know, which made me happy and gave me some confidence. After quite some time of using different rhythms and trying out hand placements, some better, some worse, and some awkward repositioning at times due to the way we were sitting, I felt his hand leave my dick and creep up my back until he rested it on my neck/ back of my head. At first I didn't understand, but then I felt some light but obviously intentional pressure.
At that point I looked at him as if to ask "You sure? Do I understand correctly?", and before I even got a chance to ask, he said "Cmon, I know you also want to try it", almost seeming a bit impatient, though still playful. Well damn, I thought, he was right and he knew it. And it's not that I didn't want to try, but I was rather a bit scared or unsure to do something wrong that could end what we were doing. But I thought that I was given this chance and might not get another one soon (I sadly was right about this - we didn't really do much again sexually, and it was the first and last time I had an experience in school, my next experience was with my first bf when I was 17 - story for another time!), so I should take it. I figured I'd just be careful with my teeth and otherwise try to emulate what I saw in porn, aswell as use common sense and imagination as to what would feel good on my dick (random, but: this is probably why we boys give better blowjobs than girls haha).
I got up from where I was sitting since the angle would have been awkward, and while he first looked a bit puzzled he quickly got what I was doing. I knelt down in front of him and pulled his pants and boxers fully down his legs and off over his shoes. He quickly pushed them to the side and opened his legs to make some room for me to kneel between them. I also took off my shirt, and so did he (the rest of the way, anyways). I had never had this kind of perspective before, so I was stunned as to how much bigger his already great cock seemed. It looked absolutely massive and imposing, and to enjoy this feeling and give him a nice and hot view I emulated something I saw in porn, which was to move in, kiss his cock before taking it at the base and holding it onto my face. I felt his warm cock twitching and pulsating, so he was probably enjoying the view of his cock being caressed and looking massive laying on top my face. First I had my eyes closed, taking in the warm and pulsating feeling, but then I took the chance and opened my eyes to look into his. Or tried to at least, one half of my face was completely blocked by his cock lmao. But I could still see him smiling, clearly enjoying himself being in that position of being serviced by his younger friend. But I didn't want to keep him waiting or get impatient, so I started slowly licking from where his balls met his base all the way to the tip, still holding the base with one hand, while my other hand had started exploring his abs and starting moving towards his chest. I enjoyed getting a feel of his toned and slim, yet athletic body getting tense in anticipation, quivering slightly as my tongue moved across his tip. It tasted salty and the taste and smell turned me on even more. I savored every second and really wanted to make his experience memorable, so I took my time circling my tongue on his tip, moving up and down licking and kissing his shaft, while very gently stroking his massive cock with one hand while caressing his body with the other, afterwards using it to cup his balls.
Just as I felt his tense body relaxing and getting into the soft rhythm I set, I took the next opportunity as I was once again at the tip of his dick to slip his head into my mouth, sucking on it while sliding down as far as I could fit his thick shaft, all while tightening my grip on his cock, stroking it in the same rhythm, and gently fondling his balls. Sucking dick just felt natural to me, as if this was just what I was born to do. The sudden but planned shift after all the buildup seemed to overwhelm him, because the moan he let out sounded very surprised and unintentional, almost a bit guttural. It was loud enough I was surprised no one heard us, guess it was good to be both after hours and rather far from where people would usually be around ;). Okay well..maybe someone did hear us but decided not to check haha. Anyways, by that point I had tried lots of techniques and paid attention to what he reacted to and what he enjoyed, so I was confident in my ability to get him off. I basically knew I "had" him, so I started being more playful, going faster and faster until I could feel him getting tense and breathing heavily, keeping him on the edge, only to slow down again. After two or three times I did that, he probably had enough and wanted to be back in control I think, because he stood up, pushed me onto the sofa so I was half sitting/laying down, and straddled my chest. The way he was sitting on my chest I probably had one of the most magnificent views of my life: above me I could see his toned body move excitedly with every breath and his cute face had this horny and hungry look on it.
I'm not sure if he looked at me and my body the same way, or if in this moment he just enjoyed how he felt and saw my body as something to use to get off, but honestly? I really didn't care, not at the time and not now. And I didn't even mention the best part of our new arrangement, because right in front of my face I had a facefull of cock just pointing right at me. At first I tried to continue what I was doing beforehand, but he quickly stopped me when he tossed my hands off his cock, grabbed a chunk of hair at the back of my head and shoved his cock down my throat, further than I had dared to go myself before. I kinda struggled against him at the beginning, because I wasn't used to the feeling and had little training so I was left choking a bit, and given his size and thickness I'm sure most people would have struggled with that. But he was way stronger than me so it was futile, he pushed past my struggle and I'm glad he did, because there's no way I'd have managed that of my own accord. Looking at his face I could tell that he was at a point that even if he wanted, there is probably no way he could have stopped himself from what he was doing - he was way too horny at that point, me edging him for so long, mixed with his hormones at his age, the nature and thrill of where we were at and the fact that he hadn't had any action in quite the while had probably made him more horny than he had ever been before (and I like to think: maybe also since? haha). It took some getting used to having him go so deep and I was definitely choking a bit and tearing up at the beginning, but after a while I got used to it. He was basically using me and my mouth and throat like a fleshlight, holding and fucking my head while moaning and breathing heavily. Since my hands were free again I was using one to support his balls and push his taint to increase his pleasure, while jerking myself off with my other hand. I had to be super careful and was basically edging myself, keeping myself just on the verge of cumming - it was so intense.
Based on the fact that he was starting to slow down more often I could tell he was also getting close and was pacing himself, so I intensified the way I was sucking on and tongueing his head aswell as playing with his balls. I also let go of my cock with my other hand and used it to once again grab hold of his cock and stroking and twisting with my hand in the same rhythm he slid in and out of my throat. At that point he made it clear to me that he was about to cum, which was more than welcome for me. Don't get me wrong, everything about this was hot and I would have loved to keep going, but not only was my jaw starting to hurt from his size, I also didn't really know how much time we had left. I hadn't heard the bells yet and when we started we would have had about an hour left until we would have to get going again, but time kinda flew and I couldn't really tell. His phone was all but forgotten, I don't think there was even any video left playing in the background lmao.
I gave him a nod that I understood and signaled him to relax and let me finish him off. I used what I had been taught during our session and tried my best to give him a mixture of a deepthroat while using both of my hands to stimulate every cm of his cock that I could manage, and based on his intensifying breathing and moaning I could tell that it was working. He was nice enough to reach back with his free hand and stroke my cock and I was also still close to cumming, even though I hadn't touched my dick much the past few minutes before that. The feeling of being close myself gave me all the energy and motivation needed to keep going at a steady rhythm on his cock. "Keep going...aarghh" he said while breathing heavily, it sounded almost desperate (if you know the tone, you know), "Don't change... agghh...fucking... thing!" (I wasn't planning to, but had I then this surely would have stopped me from doing so lol). It took another two or three seconds before I noticed a few things in quick succession: he let out a super loud and guttural moan; his grip on my cock tightened quite a bit; his body tensed up all over; I felt his already large cock push even deeper into my throat, then also felt it twitching hard in my mouth, enough to feel thicker than usual with every pulse; first one, then another massive load of warm cum splashed against the back of my throat in quick succession; I registered the taste last. The first two quick loads was enough that I felt as though I might choke, so I pushed him back a bit and had him pull his cock out of my mouth. He stopped with his cock in front of my face and I continued milking him with the rhythm I had been keeping; he was moaning and quivering as he kept unloading thick rope after rope all over my mouth, face and body, the rest covering parts of the sofa and even some on the wall. The amount of cum that boy laid onto me was honestly crazy! Maybe I am subconsciously exaggerating the memory of my at the time super intense experience, but it probably really was like at least 9 or 10 thick full ropes with lots of power behind them. This whole sight and sensory experience, combined with him tightening his grip of my cock from cumming so hard, also pushed me over the edge and gave me the kind of hard orgasm I have been loving and chasing ever since, and, now that I have a bf who knows my body, experiencing sort of regularly. Back then it was honestly mindblowing though and totally changed my perspective on what good sex could and should feel like, which is honestly great, because it probably kept me from being satisfied with just jerking off to porn hahaha! At the time I hadn't really started cumming as much as J did, but I was still surprised to see and feel myself shoot a few ropes of my own, which landed somewhere on his back, my stomach and back where it came from. I don't think he was as thrilled about being covered in cum as I was, but I don't think he really minded either. At the end we were both breathing heavily and didn't say much, but we both kinda had to laugh for some reason! "Jerk off together" my ass though haha, I wonder if he knew where that was going right from the start, and if this was more his idea or mine lmao.
Anyways, we didn't really plan ahead for this, so cleanup was pretty awkward. I think he grabbed me some paper towels from the sink in that classroom which I used to get most of our cum off of my face and body, he probably did the same. We tried getting some of the "collateral damage" (on the wall and sofa) fixed, but there was quite obviously still some left afterwards, but we left that for somebody else to worry about lol. Nowadays I hope it wasn't too bad, but back then my head (and his probably aswell) really was elsewhere and it's not like we had much time and opportunity to clean everything up anyways. I cleaned up my face as best as I could in a bathroom afterwards though, since I didn't really want everyone to see what I had been up to (even though I was actually weirdly proud for some reason haha).
But as I mentioned, this was sadly both the first and only time we ever got up to something like that. It's not like I regretted it, and neither did he I think, but we both just kinda didn't have much of an opportunity to do so again - we weren't really close, we stopped being in that same after hours homework group, he probably got a girlfriend at some point, while I first had a phase of having to hide my sexuality even more - to the point that I wanted to deny it towards myself -, and then got my first boyfriend at some point. It was the perfect storm of time, place, person, opportunity, hormones, boredom, curiosity etc.
Hope someone enjoyed reading it, and I would love to hear/read from you! Cheers :)
